beginning of a new ending

read an you will be well read.
almost.
i'm an example that failed to follow the saying.
almost.

marked

i'm not good at remembering numbers, but i have to remember today's date. studies said if you do thing for 40 times it'll become a habit. SO,

30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,30 December 2009,

ok! ingat dah!

its been a while

since I last hold my camera and snap a photo.
*sigh.

first step is the hardest. you got that right.

The Cave-17

And you might have seen the sun, when it rose, declining to the right from their Cave, and when it set, turning away from them to the left, while they lay in the midst of the Cave. That is (one) of the Ayat (proofs, evidences, signs) of Allah. He whom Allah guides, is rightly guided; but he whom He sends astray, for him you will find no Walee (guiding friend) to lead him (to the right Path).(Al-kahf-17)

my december

the thing about having long weekends in december is, you either save money for not going out or you go broke going out and spending out during the free time. me? neither both. i cut down on buying lunch by having tapau food from home (berkat woo makan masakan mama) and having breakfast before work in order to save money for shopping/ traveling/pembaziran.but since class started, i cant help but to go out. and so u know, when you are out in the big city, the money in your pocket is under a threat.( dah sape suruh blaja dekat ngan klcc, padan muka..hish) gotta deal with it for the next 3 years ++. dang! time is getting limited. and the only fair thing in this world is everyone got to have 24hrs/day in their life. gotta do the math, so not to waste it doing unnecessary thing ( seperti tulis blog..hhahaha)


p/s: im hunger of knowledge. anyone have a good philosophical.theory.autobiography book that care to share?. ngeee bosan la asyik main solitaire je dlm train.. blerghhh. (and no, i'm not addicted to it, its just there is nothing else to play)

Quoted from the movie Zombieland:

Enjoy the little things.

even if it last a short while.

lalalalalalove song

i'm falling back in love with architecture.

its blooming like flowers in spring.

hope this one will last.

- seb baik ade zal =)

asyik shopping je, next month bayar bil letrik.... huh!

pbbbbbttt! Im hot. I mean the-weather- increase-the-body-temperature-and-makes-you-sweat - type of hot. and it will be pouring in the evening. hot and cold ( bak kata katy perry). mengikut ilmu geografi yg dipelajari semasa tingkatan 2, fenomena ini di namakan hujan bukit. correct me if i'm wrong. kelihatan awan2 kumolonimbus memenuhi ruang udara. Its raining man! burp... Alhamdulillah (blessing for the rain and food...yummeh)..i've been thinking to make exercising a daily routine. not a yearly routine or whenever i feel the jeans ain't fit anymore. signing up for a gym membership is a no-no. most of the gym situated at a shopping mall. nanti bende lain yg kurus sat gi. i like doing the regime at home just wearing kaftan. no one would even care. hah! its not about being slim ( ak rase kurus dah ni.. takyah dah), its about being fit and healthy. fit and healthy is the new black! yeah!

jangan jadi hangat2 chicken shit sudey.

p/s: To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

a risk taker i am.

sebab by reason

to stay at home..
free wi-fi
pathetic isn't it.
but at least i got the world at my finger tip, by just lazing around the house.
but then a gain, my class starting this week, so, home prolly be my place to doze off n take shower aka hotel. *sigh
class n library will the most visited place next year. i like going to the library. terasa macam pandai. hahha.. oh yeah Aainaa's house is going to be the lepaks place since her house is just behind my Uni.
how i miss getting all the student rate when shopping n movies. ahaha..
its the time again.
if it is worth doing, it is worth doing it right!

saya sam

Sam: Yeah, but I tried, I tried hard.
Rita: Try harder!
Sam: Yeah, but you don't know, you don't know!
Rita: I don't know WHAT?
Sam: Yeah, you don't know what is like when you try, and you try, and you try, and you try, and you don't ever get there! Because you were born perfect and I was born like this, and you're perfect!
Rita: Oh, is that right?
Sam: People like you don't know...
Rita: People like me?
Sam: People like you don't know what is like to get hurted. Because you don't have feelings. People like you don't feel anything!

***

This movie makes you feel grateful of what you are! =)


p/s: Worry not that no one knows of you; seek to be worth knowing


have a nice Monday!

jernel jenerel jeneres

feel like writing something. since the head technician who always asked me to get married (penat dah bg alasan..hish pakcik ni) is MIA from the office . So, i'm left with nothing to do beside ym-ing with my 2 friends simultaneously. daym good at multitasking i tell you..hahhaha..kinda feel blessed working in selangor, only in this month because of the 4 days working day throughout the month. but sadly, i ain't got any major plan to do.*sigh. staying at home and be with the family wasn't so bad at all. It's better to be an optimist who is sometimes wrong than a pessimist who is always right. ( you are almost there girl!)
At times i do wish to become like Dory in Finding Nemo, who has a short term memory lost. where i can easily forget things that i dont want to remember. like for instance i hate when i'm being calculative in giving, like doing a favor for someone, i dont want to have the feeling that in future that particular someone need to return the favor. Its like i'm not being sincere in giving a hand. Thus i like to become Dory the fish when helping ppl. ( bijak sungguh) But still i dont want to forget the ppl who helped me before. Take note: giving is NOT about getting.

p/s: Real generosity toward the future lies in giving all to the present

possessless

i just realized that my room is the only room that never been locked whenever i'm not home. i guess there is nothing priceless inside it. ( iya aku nggak ada apa2). Not like any other rooms has a lot in it. eh no. wait. the master bedroom must have a lot of treasures.. what am i saying..oh yeah. exceptional case.but anyhow, i thought of changing the lock whatsoever, but it just doesnt seem necessary, not now anyway.or i prolly just don't have anything to hide. except for my scorpion that i haven't fed for a month underneath my bed. i do have a secret. i believe a secret is not meant to be told. once you tell a person, therefore it is not a secret anymore. ( ak mmg kedekut..bluekkk) hmm..what the heck.. nothing last forever. same goes to the thing i posses. sometimes i got tired when i have to protect what is mine. ok i should stop. now i felt like a pathetic person who owns nothing.

eh kejap.

i do own one thing. my thought.

A man's real possession is his memory. In nothing else is he rich, in nothing else is he poor.

bolehlah tu..

weekends coming. i wish i'm looking forward to it. but not. maybe just yet. i wish to sleep and waking up on monday morning.wishing for a productive weekend.Amin...Anyway, all that is solid melts into air, all that is holy is profaned, and man is at last compelled to face with sober senses his real conditions of life, and his relations with his kind. am right?

move along

“He who postpones the hour of living is like the rustic who waits for the river to run out before he crosses.”

Jalan yang Kena Ingat!

Jamie: You don't know the first thing about being someone's friend.
Landon: I don't want to just be your friend.
Jamie: You don't know what you want.
Landon: Neither do you. Maybe you're just too scared that someone might actually want to be with you.
Jamie: And why would that scare me?
Landon: Because then you wouldn't be able to hide behind your books, or your frickin' telescope, or your faith. No, no, you know the real reason why you're scared? It's cause you wanna be with me too.

quotes from one of my favorite movie. I only watch it alone. You'll find a box of tissue would be all wet in the end (hiperbola jer tuh. ko mmg tak ske org tgk ko nagis pun kan)..hahahaha


p/s: It all comes down to who's by your side

jingle bell,jingle bell

I think the new phone has it benefits. i turn it into my second blog. (and NO exchanging phone anymore ok) i still have problem transferring the files to the phone. and if only the phone makes it easier for me to tweet.( agak2 la kan.. tak puas plak dgn fesbuk nak tweet2 plak). Just had breakafast with mama. The topic of dicussion is always about her school. the teachers the politics yada yada. She's very passion about teaching and all. Go marry a teacher an you get yourself a good wife. theres a lesson to learn everyday. i mean EVERYDAY! ahahah( ini cuma teori yang tiada bukti. harus salah). Should i make a resolution?. NOT!!! ( mushy ko x penah pun ade resolusi. jgn nak merepek) But I think it is good to have one. I'm just not that kind of person who make resolution let alone make it into realization.I'll stress out if I'll ever had one. ( aim jadi nenek yang happy dan sentiase ceria sudey!) Supposedly i had nothing plan for December besides attending weddings on weekend. But just as 1 Dec arrived, all the invitation and plan came in like a machine gun.How i wish to join every one of it. Your Langkawi adventure trip is very temptating Atiq, if only I had not plan another trip on the same date.*sigh.Then, miza's art class seems interesting. I always wanted to learn that. *sigh. This is what happen if you wish too much. heh?but when is not to wish too much? (sila bersyukur ye mushy) ok2! nih kawe nok g wat kije.

laalllaaalalalove song...

p/s: spontaneity is a bless n a curse at times.

sepatwo

let's blog

ok!but about what?

trash?

nice topic! good one.

(monologues)

a friend suggested that i blog about shoes. my current obsession. not really current. it always be one. I'll give it a thought. shoes+ architecture. ever came across my writings that is about architecture?. kannnn. but i do wish that most shopping complexes have anti slip tiling. i know the sparkling n shining floor give an extra posh to the space, but it make it hard for me to walk in my 4 inch. There was this incident, i almost slip while rushing up the escalator. dah hilang dah macho time tu. daym. since everyone is going green now, why don't people design a shopping complexes that uses grass instead of tiles. an internal turfing. i imagine it'll be like a Fernleaf milk advertisement. well, its just a thought. haha

My December target. lalalalal.
but this one xde unsur senibina. cant think of 1.

i loike!

p/s: drool...hah!

mon mad ppl

i was a bout to write about an incident i had this morning. a kidnap-like-encounter, like the fourth time already. its not scary anymore. its annoying. i wonder is there a sign ' DO KIDNAP ME' blinking so obviously above my head.. kay la malas nak elaborate. bodo betul.. internet yg lambat membantut kan niat nak cerita panjang lebar. bluekkkkkkk..

salam korban peeps

sebulan sebelum raya haji, mama ada ajak nak join sekali tak korban. bear share rmi2. dah terdetik dah nak join. ha! lepas tu, dapat gaji tak hengat, bayar2 dan beli2, pastu habis. bluekkkkkkkkkk. *sigh. tapi niat ade dah.. dapat pahala kan2...huhuhuhu

maaf zahir batin.

its a meat day! hohooho

-tidak bertajuk-

konpius benta.. approved friends i never requested..n all of them were in the same uni... ape2 jela ko fesbuk.. ske hati ko la...let the curiosity kill its own cat. not going to bother...

*-*-*

yeah i know life is complicated, is hard and yada yada yada...i never met someone who is never complain about their difficulties of life. Even Bill gates complains his software isnt so magical..cant we just accept the fact and live with it.. have you guys ever had a situation where you were so focusing on a particular thing and been putting so much effort to make it work, then all of sudden it failed. your heart crushed and will take forever to recover. dont you think its tiring. when you recovered and realized its actually a no big deal after all.. its not that u cant be sad and wallow. it is healthy to do that.scientifically proven. don't be shy to cry.just dont make it too long. you might have miss something. life is short. your lifetime might not last a day in resurrection.
a couple of days ago, as i was queuing at Subway counter , an mid-50 man was ordering his sandwiches. and all of sudden he went berserk just because the waiter misunderstood his salad dressing. why some people wants everyone to be afraid of them. i know its their choice as human. Dont you think its bring complication in life. it is no harm being nice.
Do whatever you want to do so long it doesnt hurt people whom you care and cares about you. and i'm doing exactly as it is. I know sometimes ppl asked me, didn't you feel anything? why are you seem so happy?takkan la tak penah sedih kot..i'm not a permanent resident of hospital in tanjung rambutan. duhh.. its just that i don't want to grow old becoming an old grumpy lady who is always get angry just about anything because she didnt get to do what she desired when she is still young..

skrg tgh fokus untuk jadi nenek yang happy dan ceria sentiasa!

heh!

obsessive compulsive

Never ever said in a boastful way ' i'm not going to turn like your grandma'
because soon your children will finds that you and your grandma are a like.
period.
seriously.

Italy cappucino tp pakai susu F n N

there is this elderly couple owning a cafe @ the podium level of this office tower. its been there ever since i started working. not until just now as i was buying my latte did i notice something. the couple's cafe is quite neat n tidy. even w/o fancy stuff, the sugar separation were kept neatly according to the type. long and short straw are separated, the cutlery, the food n stuff. freaking neat!. like the one in fancy restaurant but its just a uptown cafe own by an elderly couple. as they were closing, the wife cleans up the kitchen, the husband pack up the chairs and table. i think they both suit each other very well. cute it is. owning a cafe together. what a way of spending the time when u r off with the kids... teruja nya saya.. too bad.. i'm getting young. back to school already.. better skip that thought kejap..

discomfort growth

changes bring discomfort, but it is crucial for growth.
like right now, continuing study and all,
everything seems so sudden
the heart need to stop feeling
so that the brain can start thinking
for a while.
bila mak kata' tula masa kerja x nak menyimpan bla bla'
rase bersalah bila tak rase bersalah sbb tak menyimpan.
what i gain from those travelling is priceless ok. bak kate mastercard.
duit bleyh cari, ilmu pun kn cari juga kan?? ( what exactly am i trying to say here??)
wait.ok. thespirit to study is hard to bring back when u started working. ni baru betul.
best thing about studying is, you'll feel young and free. though i'm still working.
nak rase muda jugak tak kira.
but it is going to be a tough three point five years ahead.
wether it is long or short depends on how you spend your time.
now, i need to find the organizer i bought early this year. hahah.


p/s: hati still berbunga dgn pujian aunty bookstore tu.. hahaha.. suka nye saya...lalalalalala

“The risk of love is loss, and the price of loss is grief -
But the pain of grief
Is only a shadow
When compared with the pain
Of never risking love.”

“To confront a person with his own shadow is to show him his own light”

from one thing to another

i was turn on by his offer
what can a girl do
its so tempting to pass it out
good gracious!
why cant I stop the urge
boy u totally know my weakness
is it a bless
or a curse?

same goes to you zu!
hish!

its friday the 13th

and this is my 200th post!

ahahah..

nice.

“It's weird...you know the end of something great is coming, but you want to hold on, just for one more second...just so it can hurt a little more.”

“Love one another, but make not a bond of love: Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls”

28 days cycle

i think i'm contributing myself in the country economic growth.
i work.
got paid.
slpurge.
went broke.
work again.
got paid.
and the cycle went on.

in order to make the economy grow, we need to spend.
i learn it from an expertise.

Conquered!

Borobudur, Yogyakarta

mengekalkan keadaan fizikal

penat kan kadang2 berada dalam medium yang berbeza dalam satu jangka masa yang pendek. seperti berada dalam keadaan ais tiba2 je dah jadi gas. seperti bermetaforakan ais kering atau pun merkuri. walaupun gembira berada dalam keadaan gas semula, tetapi kadang terdetik perasaan apabila berada dalam keadaan pepejal. sebab pernah mengalami keadaan tu sebelum ni. takut jadi pepejal semula, tapi berusaha bersunguh untuk mengekalkan dalam keadaan gas yang ringan, dan bebas, senang. tapi kebarangkalian untuk keadaan pepejal yang tumpat, berat dan padat sentiasa ade. siapa la yang boleh mengawal tekanan dan suhu persekitaran kalau bukan si Dia. mungkin dengan mengubah struktur kimia atau penambahan bendasing dapat mengukuhkan lagi keadaan gas.

walau apa2 pun keadaan gas ini akan terbang ke negara seberang untuk mengukuhkan lagi keadaan gas nye atau mungkin mencari bendasing tetapi bukan pemangkin yang boleh menggugat keadaannya.



p/s: kn kembali dengan kain telekung dan marlboro sekaton.

baru yang tetap sama

yang lama dah tukar baru
buka yang baru
lupa yang lama
yang baru percuma
yang lama mahal
yang baru senang
yang lama menyusahkan
sayang yang baru
buang yang lama.
tapi ada yang tetap sama.


dah tukar ke postpaid tapi hp tetap yg cap ayam. takpe. dipersilakan kutuk.

7 days to summer

my blog should be a version of twitter since i can never writes long entry. this is what happen when you are using the internet in the office. as long as u get your work done, the world wide web is yours. i did just that. almost.

i came across the statement, what usually can fit in your bag can fit in your hand,and what can now fit in your hand can be fit into your blood cell.( sort off)

so, pretty please design me a DSLR that can fit into my purse. thank you.

p/s: ms. caffeine need a recharge.

'akan terus melangkah walaupun pakai heels tu penat! yeah!'

mr. nikotine dan ms. caffeine

'bang, bagi marlboro, soft pack satu'
'bang, cafe latte panas kurang manis satu'
sekali sedut,
otak yang serabut
yang kelam kabut
jadi nyaman
dunia kembali aman
berdua ketagih
'menagih'
so, toksah gaduh!

yikes

Ku sangka panas sampai ke petang
rupanya hujan di tengah hari
Ku sangka cek gaji yang datang
rupanya bil maxis yang mari

*sigh

cant fight fate-G.B

i cried watching the morning news. ALL of the news were very doleful. it was devastating. the car accident, drowning, died while sleeping,etc made me realize how short life is. like the time taken to cross the road (it prolly took me longer). i wonder when was the last time I've been thankful for the life i have.. so busy comparing with each other and forget to be grateful of the things that you have.

cantik jugak kalau buat setem..

there goes the lunch

*bought maggi cup tomyam especially for lunch. went to the hot water flask only to find 2 drop of hot water.

*the atm card failed yet again. if only the branch is near by.

end of the month syndrome!

lol!

what a monday. nah.. i'd experienced even worse.

(+_+)"

waking deep

if i'm leaving a dream, do wake me up
if i'm leaving a nightmare, do wake me up
because neither shows the truth
i want to be in the reality
thank you.

=P

What??!! you like chick flick??

You are soooo my new BFF!!

yeah!!

tunggu menunggu
jadi tugu
menunggu datang
sampai bersarang
sabar jadi tiang
redha jadi parang

Happy is he who causes a scandal

i never thought it takes a lot of guts to make decision for yourself. most of the time i made decision in favor of the other parties, but now when it come to the most ultimate decision, even Uncle Google can't do much help. Call me pathetic or whatsoever, but in life decision i ALWAYS googled. like for instant, ' how to help a friend in grieve', ' how to be a good friends',' how to handle your money wisely','how to be happy', 'how to stop shopaholic addictive'how to make cookies like famos amos', ' how to take good photos' and the list goes on... e-how helps sometimes.. thank you to those who gave me the title' the walking encyclopedia'. this shows my addiction to the internet. and no i dont do games, you-tube and downloading. thats u need to e-how it yourself!
anyhow, what i'm trying to say is, there r things u need to figure out yourself, when all the googling failed. the help of God, subconcious mind, instinct which is the non-physical need to be consider.

*to be continue*

tiba2 je dapat berita gembira. tak jadi nak serius2. lets shop!
new heels coming up! =P


p/s: Pure and complete sorrow is as impossible as pure and complete joy

just shut up n drive.

headlines

“I am a loyalist but if U*** does not heed the change for structural changes, I may reconsider (about the prospects of joining another party),”Ku Li

agreed.

a cynical shampoo

Long-term relationship

my new shampoo

'ko perli aku ekk shampoo?'

'dah pandai ekk'

its ok. i'll take it as a challenge.

never thought that a shampoo can be somewhat provoking.

hish!

B-ig F-at F-able

it easier for girls to find their esprit de corp among the same gender. like for instance shopping ( i know i used the word so annoyingly a lot). shopping is like a bonding activities among the girls. even though we ended up buying nothing, the social network done has a positive impact on each other. most guy envy the bond the we have (be proud girls!), because man aren't likely to be open and share about personal stuff to their male friends.'the stone-age ego' thingy.anyhow, there must be a certain level of sharing. setting up limit on what to share and what not to share is important. we girls used the term BFF. and if guys used it, it'll sound so gay. i like listening to ppl stories, but i'm no doctor love. i gives harsh and direct solution if it involve that matter. so much of the bad record i guess. the bottom line is, communication is crucial to be good at. because mis-com can lead to this!


hah!

p/s: i would like to be my partner's best friend just like Letitia Christian Tyler, the tenth US first lady.

a contra addiction

mama said ' be serious, don't play-play with heart matters'

i said ' i'd never been this serious. don't worry, anak mak ni baik'

i show seriousness in my playful mode
i show playfulness in my serious mode

contradict is fun.

am i just confabulating things?

kalau kalah--> hapuskan segala bukti yg telah menunjukkan berlakunya percubaan.

kalau menang--> tak perlu tanya sudah diberitahu.

adakah ini realiti atau hipokrasi?

hah.

I heart me then I heart you

Love Yourself First

By Amina Cisse Muhammad

When I speak of self-love, I do not mean self-centeredness, conceit, or boastful arrogance. These are all extreme attributes. We recognize that any positive attribute can become unhealthy when it shifts to the extreme.

Rather, I am referring to the feeling of self-worth and self-acceptance, both recognized as components of a person's ability to effectively function and co-exist in society.

Growing up, most of us heard a thousand times how it is better to give than to receive. That's true, but in the process of giving, some of us (particularly, I would say, women and mothers) get so used to selflessly giving to others that we forget about giving to ourselves.

Over the years, I have tended to neglect myself to a fault while taking care of others. However, we know from both the Quran and Hadith that we have obligations to ourselves as well — obligations to nourish our souls, minds, and bodies with the bountiful resources that Allah has blessed us with.

Also we have an obligation to get proper sleep, to exercise, to strive for our sustenance. In fact, taking care of ourselves actually helps us draw closer to Allah and better serve His creation.

While I could not find much written about the Islamic perspective on self-love, most of us are familiar with the saying, "We cannot know (or worship) Allah until we know ourselves."

Self-knowledge requires positive self-regard and self-acceptance. A person who is afflicted with feelings of negative self-worth, and self-doubt is not at peace to optimally worship Allah.

There is a considerable body of literature on the importance of self-love from the perspective of psychologists, psychotherapists, and spiritual teachers. Self-love is a crucial aspect of self-esteem, which psychologist Abraham Maslow recognized as a higher need in his hierarchy of human needs.

Life coach Cathy Holloway Hill also speaks to the spiritual aspect of self-love, which she defines as:

Inner peace, a connection with God... a condition of awareness, a way of perceiving, an attitude, which results in an integrated perception of the world, and in turn, a perception of your connection with God” and the restoration of our innate spiritual center so that “love from our Divine Creator flows freely into our body, minds, emotional bodies and spirit. Love is (then) expressed outwardly towards others and oneself as a natural flow.

If asked, the majority of us would say we love ourselves. However, upon examining our overall behavior and our lives, we might conclude that our feelings of self-worth leave something to be desired.

Some experts consider low-self esteem to be a rampant problem today, and some even tie it to all other problems that humans suffer — relationships, health, money, or work problems. Psychotherapist Nathaniel Branden describes inadequate self-esteem as the one common denominator in all neurotic problems.

Dean Ornish, medical doctor and author of Love and Survival: The Scientific Basis for the Healing Power of Intimacy, reveals how he came to realize that having loving relationships is not about finding the right person; rather, it is about being the right person:

The more love I feel for myself, the more love I have to give others. As I feel more compassion for myself, I have a greater capacity to view others with more compassion and with less judgment.

In his highly-acclaimed best seller, The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People, Steven Covey discusses how independence (which requires self-belief and self-reliance) must precede inter-dependence.

How do we go about developing positive self-esteem so that we can lead healthy, balanced and satisfying lives — individually, and within our relationships and communities?

In the last article, we talked about how we are naturally inclined towards relationships. Allah gives us clear injunctions in the Quran, and examples through His prophets as to how we should live our lives. Our submission towards Allah regarding the structuring and the nature of our relationships is the first step in this direction.

Every child is born to two parents who, if aligned with their natural fitrah (disposition), love one another. The Quran says:

[It is He who created you from a single person, and made his mate of like nature, in order that he might dwell with her in love] (Al-A`raf 7:189)

The example of the love that a child's mother and father have for one another is one of the most important gifts that he or she can receive. As well, the role that parental love plays in developing self-esteem is paramount.

For some, counseling is one avenue for improving self-esteem. Opening our hearts so we can recognize and receive Allah's love and the love of those around us is another. However, that requires being vulnerable. Daring to be so is the topic of a future article.

Sources:

Ornish, Dean. MD. Love and Survival: The Scientific Basis for the Healing Power of Intimacy, pp. 92-93. Harper Collins, 1998.

Olive, Pauline. Love and Stuff. Wikipedia. " Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs " Accessed 01 Jan 2009.

Love is mushy; science is hard

but i do like things to be hard facts. its either black or white. no gray matter. but as we grow, we created our own meaning of love. though it might not last, a new definition will be created once it has reconcile a new found love. it is a gambling game.you either win with colors or failed with hurt. but not until you've found the one, the searching is endless. its not about finding the perfect one but its seeing the imperfect one perfectly. get rid of those checklist you've got.just get out there and give out love. someone out there who's perfect enough will notice it. kinda hard to be put in practice when the word seems so idealistic. but if you see other people journey of love, and how fate bind them together, don't you ever wonder the strength that they have to reach their destiny. energy that we ourselves can never imagine could have. but its possible. the curiosity that makes man keep on searching, for something that cannot be seen but only felt seems pointless but once you found it, the contented feeling is indescribable. i admitted of failure myself. but thats how its going to happen. think about the failure as a practice ( optimistic talking here) or, if you failed, vanish all evidence that you'd tried ( that's egoistic talking). other way, just don't get stuck in the middle. life are to be changed or accepted. if it cannot be accepted than change it! if you neither change it nor accept it, you'll be depress. its no fun being depress. life is too short to be sad. gotta get up honey! someones waiting for you out there =)

p/s: “Search yourself, and you will find Allah”

my new friend!

“Few things in the world are more powerful than a positive push. A smile. A word of optimism and hope. And you can do it when things are tough.”

Image by Sanctuary Photograghy via Flickr

though i'm not very fond of lemang, i do enjoy the time when the families get together n making it.*sigh.. have to wait for raya haji then.

p/s: let the new plan starts.

I'M GETTING CLEAN

i'm picking up what i have left behind
if only i could ask for help
like hand it to grandma's maid to pick it up
since its only cost rm10 an hour
or i could used the vacuum cleaner
to suck everything up in an instance
and never have to see it again
but this time
its my mess
i clean it up
i'am responsible to make it neat again
there is no short cut
even though i wish there was
because deep down i know
grown up cleans their own mess
so get up
and get clean missy!

pending

rase serabut yg lagi serabut daripada:-

-design parking layout utk Atria yg mungkin akan bertukar sehingga lah bangunanya siap dibina
-shopping di pasar baru, bandung setinggi 7 tingkat tanpa ventilasi yg cukup dgn aircond berbau asap dan boleh dikatakan kepadatan pengunjung disana adalah 5 org per meter persegi.
-memikirkan kecukupan wang saku sebelum tibanya hari pembayaran yg masih ada lagi semggu.

hampir semua kerja terpaksa pending kerana masih lagi pening untuk buat keputusan penting.

rase mcm nak berselimut di katil empuk bersama bolster dan bantal berbentuk puppy chomel pemberian melissa. dan tidur bersama dewi tidur.

i can read between the lines

' aku rase ko bubuh ganja kat cookies ni.. tak bley nak benti makan'

nasib aku pandai membaca maksud disebalik ayat.

'bak sini resepi cookies nih'

hah!

finding reasons

to shop.

i shop for shoes and clothes impulsively w/o trying to find the reason ( wonder if there is any.hah.) then went home, mom asked, ' u got nothing else to do besides shopping heh?'. i simply reply instantaneously, ' mama org depress kn la pegi shopping.' yeah rite. so much of finding a reason. and again, mom gave the annoyed look (*again). 'depress la sangat.ceh'..

and the next day,my fav shoe broke.
there goes a reason too late.
*sigh.

the moral of the story is, don't wait for reasons, follow your guts and shop!
hahahha

raya'09

still not too late to update about raya right? its a different raya of course. instead of receiving green packet, i'm the one whos giving it out.the excitement is still the same nonetheless. just the end results differed. i end up empty handed. if i were my lil' cousin, i would be grateful to have so many older cousins who is already working. syiok wey.being one of the older grandchildren in the family, in the mid-20s, it is so hard not to avoid being ask the M q's.and having a lot of aunties only worsen the issues since some of them like to play cupid. i know what mak ngah intentions when she suddenly took all of her single nieces photo... nice approach heh..anyhow, my raya only celebrated on the 1st Syawal, started fasting the next day and went back to kajang. surprisingly, the most visited places during my 9-days raya hols is the hospital..yeah..clap2.. for just making an appointment to extract the wisdom tooth, i had to go to 3 hospitals.nice heh.. i'll show how does my teeth x ray look like later.. in total, i went to 4 hospitals. 1 of them was visiting mom's fren's husband whos in icu..after went broke giving out green packet, what else is relevant to do than being mom's helper at home..yeap.. a helpless helper..above all, i had a blast on raya!



and a granma's helper...hehehe

a peek

'You are the expert of you. while other people may be experts on how you're supposed to behave, only you know at a fundamental level what does (or doesn't) work for you'

Thank you.
The curiosity that arouse reminds me that there are people who cares. How can i not be grateful for that.

p/s: ' dont make the same mistake as i did'- i'm holding on to this.

where to?

i came a cross a quote,

“The World is a Book, and Those Who Do Not Travel Read Only A Page”

I said it out loud to mom and gave me the annoyed look. hehehe..
she said, the world is only at your fingertip, u can always google...

nahh.. i'm greedy.. i like both..googling and traveling..

i get adrenaline rush when i think about traveling..
sometimes i need someone to gimme a smack to get me relax..

p/s: sometimes u gotta be cruel to be kind. after all, you are only supporting actor in everyone's play.

things that happen simultaneously does amaze me.and sometimes it can create a misunderstandings. people see it like that. the one who experienced it saw otherwise. i just hope mine wont end up like that. Jiwa kental!!

for the second time.

happy raya ppl.

and again the hiatus starts now!

i hate to hate

i hates when i hated something. because i tried so hard not to hate. because when you hate, the things you hate will come at you.Than you become more hate about it that you used too. Because the mind is like a very powerful magnet. It attracts whats the mind is thinking. whether the thinking is good or bad. so, being a woman, naturally who likes to worry and thinks so ridiculously until when you gain conscious you went- ' why on earth did i ever thought like that', I can't help being overly thought and a control freak. The practice of positive thinking does work, sometimes i just hate when there is doubts being trigger into my heart. I'm still learning on how to murder those doubts. sometimes it works sometimes i flunk. just bare in mind not to use the word hate. seriously, you'll hate it.

p/s: i shouldn't swear when i said i hate smoke..

its the time for family

“So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.” xFenderx

Morrie Schwartz quote

HAPPY EID FITR

will be hiatus for a week.!! weeeeeee

positive wave

analogi manusia dgn gelombang. bermula dari satu titik dan merambat dari medium ke medium yg lain. Dalam masa yg sama terdapat gelombang gelombang lain yang terhasil. Ada ketika di dalam medium yang sama, pertembungan antara dua atau lebih gelombang berlaku. Inteferens ini mengahsil kan nod yang ada kalanya memusnah atau membina. Kemudian gelombang itu akan terus merambat dengan halaju atau amplitud yang berbeza dan mungkin seiringan dengan gelombang dimana berlakunya interferens itu. adakalanya gelombang melalui medium-medium yang berbeza, seperti gas dimana perambatan nya perlahan, cecair, perambatannya sederhana dan pepejal, perambatan secara maksimum.Dan akhirnya gelombang gelombang ini akan semakin berkurangan halaju, amplitud tapi ia tidak musnah. kerana teori albert einstein mengatakan tenaga tidak boleh dimusnahkan. ia cuma berubah dari satu tenaga ke tenaga yg berlainan. dan kadang kadang tenaga itu hanya dibazirkan untuk menentang geseran...

aku nak jadi gelombang yg merambat di medium pepejal dan hanya melakukan interferens membina dan mempunyai gelombang gelombang lain yang seiringan dan akhirnya berubah tenaga yang bermanfaat.

i'll live on.

the last week of ramadhan is fills with breakfast invitation.. yeah.. this time around ramadhan is quite lively with gatherings, meeting old/new ppl.. tp ibadat mase ramadhan agak memalukan.. how i wish ramadhan is longer... hoping to meet ramadhan next year and make the best out of it..

..........

nak buka apa ye?

nyum2...

mistaken identity

i think i should make a record on how many people who called me yuna while walking on the the street. its not amusing at all. seriously, yuna is making lots of money with her music and ppl aren't likely to saw her on the lrt. come on. no wonder ppl sometimes gave me a second look everytime they saw my face. i sing like a frog and so noob with music instruments. you got the wrong person.sorry.

4 inch no less than that

i'm soooo addicted to heels.. i know i'm going to make the podiatrist out there rich and shoes company richer, but i cant get rid of the addictiveness. there was one time when i walk the whole day wearing 4 inch heels and end up walking with flat slippers 2 straight days.. moms said my feet looks so man with the blood vessels sticking out like wires... ' takpa mama beauty is pain and this pain is categorize as the one i enjoy'hahhaah... i already have a space that i can store all my shoes collection but now the shoes starts spilling out..sue me plz.



oh god.. i havent had this kind yet...ooooo....*wink*wink

Image by Darwin Bell via Flickr

p/s: wearing heels make me stand as tall as him... tp time berjalan takde la selaju...berdarah wey...

puasa puasa...

its already noon. there is something smells like curry here. it made me thinks about the murtabak at pantai dalam bazar..*sigh. shamini must be having her home made lunch. nyum nyum...

*smack..

puasa oi..

world is full of abundance

kalau tgh marah mesti lapar kan
skrg tgh lapar
tp tgh nak diet
kesimpulannya, marah adalah tips utk kurus.
ye betul.

omnipresent

i am amazed
when whats on my mind
is spoken out loud on his
when im hungry
and thinking of what am i going to have for dinner
he came and suggest the place
when trying to scare him from behind
he turn just about the time
like he feels the presence w/o seeing
damn. its so hard to scare him sometimes.
when i look at the phone
just in time to receive his messages


hehehehe.. aku ske time tu.. tp kadang2 x jadi pun. klu jadi mesti rase best..

me likey.

KMK's

UM's

last week was the clashes breakfast between college friends n Uni's. the juggling of time and running from 1 place to another paid off. borak smpi penat mulut dan makan smpi penat perut.

i had a worker appraisal a couple of weeks ago..and i still wonder what exactly does it for. i changed architect, since the previous one had resigned...what else is new...let see.... i like the current weather during this ramadhan...cooling. it feels like Allah wants to lessen our burden who cant stand the hot sun (aku la tu kan)...alhamdulillah...oh yeah.. i changed my route to work.. just because i cant stand this 1 guy who being too friendly and start giving me bizz card and a lot of others.. zal suggest me to wear purdah..thats like the worse case scenario.. i like to commute by train since i got time to read.. the walk is excercising etc...but i just cant stand being acknowledge by ppl with motives.. bad ones...n i'm still thinking wether should i apply extra leave during raya.. as i think the 2 days of holiday is more than enough.i rather go to work than doing nothing at home...but i prolly apply an extra 3 days...what the hell, all i care is the trip to jogja.. its like in another 2 months.. tp tak sabar rr... cant wait2... borobudur here i come....

p/s: i just bought one of these.. (rolling eyes) yeah2.. sgt hygienic cautious kan...suke hatila...

ada satu watak dalam kartun shin chan ( sy sgt ske) yg mak kepada kawan perempuan shin chan, yg apabila die bengang dan marah akan ke bilik air dan buat teddy bear rabbit die sbg punching bag. cara yg bijak utk mengawal kemarahan. aku rase nak buat mcm tu r.. nak ade teddy bear pooh yg gemuk dan besar pastu buat punching bag kat bilik bila marah...

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' i feel like punching u right @ ur stomach'

conflicting a cornflakes

when i was a kid, i used to think conflicts is like cornflakes.
like for instance when i heard adults said' i'm having a conflicts with my partner'
i was innocently except she must be happy. eating cornflakes oso need to make a date..waa.. so happy ooo...
as i knew the meaning and faced with one, how i wish conflicts is like a cornflakes, crunchy, yummy and can be bake as kueh ray

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a...

sharing is caring and sometimes unbearing

let see..

that person is mad with the other person. seeing them got mad made me sad.
this person wont listen to this person. the ignorance made the other person mad. the ignorance and pulling deaf ear made me sad.
this person likes to complain a lot. the complains felt like it was my fault. it made me feels wrong and sad.

this is just the second born normality.

this situation has disturb the balance of my aura. should i stay away or be ignorance. but being ignorance just made the cycle going round and round. where are the happy people. i want to recharge my aura... i want you!

“There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will.”

i'm better now...

one of those days..

mama: oh ya, semlm aunty kirim salam. dia kate, 'kirim salam kat menantu tak jadi'..

me: hahahhaha.. w'salam..

alahai.. sian aunty..nak buat camne, takde jodoh nak jadi menantu..huhuhu ( ala mama pun lega kot...hohohoho) nanti mama bawak aunty pegi shopping lagi ok!!

“Beauty without virtue is like a rose without scent.”

i draw this rose buds after a tiring morning at the Floral festival in Putrajaya with mom. nice flower and landscape bla bla blabla (not that keen to elaborate).....anyway, its been a while since i did any dwg, how i miss doing things that i love.. painting can takes me away from the reality and i can just lose myself in those pastel color..not that i'm van goh wannabe or anything.. i just like to draw... i should do another 1 this week.. need to buy new sets of brush.. after graduated everything went MIA....

“Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, but do so with all your heart.”

i'm being a normal person. sometimes it cant be help if you feel uneasy about it. damn it... i hate these moments. need to murder those -ve vibe.. kill2!! die2!!

oh yeah..

i'm turning 23 this weekend.. excited?..nah..not really... i had celebr8 it 22 times already.... but i like August when its on the 16th... i'm thankful to those ppl who remember the dates...=)

i have a friend who doenst like to be wish happy birthday on his birthdate... he explained why and i think its kinda logical...at some point..

tapi apasalahnya kalau nak syok sendiri..kan2..

i wonder if we try to forget our own birthday, do we actually stop growing old??
-___-"

more than a week of hiatus.. not that i'm busy. its just that i'm enjoying much of the reality life compare to the virtual one.but i did some blog hopping here and there...how are things? hmm let me see.. work---> bad- good-hell-heaven ( yeah.. its so mood swing-like), life--> not bad, i just got a hand on good books to read. but i just thought that i want to trash that rental bookstore that i found in the earlier post.. it seems that most of the book there are almost 90% romance novel and half of it are judith mcnaught-kinda-type. blurghhhh...

and

i just learnt 1 lesson.

dont take what is not yours and treat people the way you want to be treated.if you take what is not yours, Allah swt will took away more from what you have.

the good: i should have stand by the money i owe her first thing after i got my pay check

the evil: u can always do it later, tomorrow even after 2-3 years. shes rich, she wont even remember u owe her money.

the good: no.no.. it is always in your belives not to take what it is not your. u already seen the consequences.

but i did return the money and yeah its true she forgot that i owed her money and no, i dont regret but was actually sooo grateful that i did because just after that moment, i receive a check more than twice the amount that i owed her..it came in by surprise..hell yeah ( supposedly heaven)...woohoo...

“When you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others.”

tak rase pun ia satu pujian bila org memanggil saya yuna.

how i wish.. but nvm

u lose some, u win some. when u lose , u'll win something. when u win, u'll lose something. its only a matter of knowing it or not. if u still cant see it. be grateful of what u have is good enough because sometimes ignorance is not a bliss. its a nightmare.

i'm just being parsimonious. parsimonious in sharing the sad moments. just be there and shut up.thank you.

all bright and burns!

Harry Burns: There are two kinds of women: high maintenance and low maintenance.
Sally Albright: Which one am I?
Harry Burns: You're the worst kind; you're high maintenance but you think you're low maintenance.
Sally Albright: I don't see that.
Harry Burns: You don't see that? Waiter, I'll begin with a house salad, but I don't want the regular dressing. I'll have the balsamic vinegar and oil, but on the side. And then the salmon with the mustard sauce, but I want the mustard sauce on the side. "On the side" is a very big thing for you.
Sally Albright: Well, I just want it the way I want it.
Harry Burns: I know; high maintenance.


p/s: i'm no high maintenance. thank you.

sh00+!

Zahnita's daughter was such a cutie pie.
the makeup was a glamorous-concept
not suitable for a wedding make-up..*sigh*
too bad theres no photo during the photo shoot
thank god..phew...

berat bertambah secara exponan

berat sesuatu perkara susah nak nilai
tapi yg pasti tak boleh di nilai dgn alat penimbang
sbb tak kira berapa berat pun perkara tu
pecutan dia tetap sama
9.8 ms2
tapi kalau kita bandingkan dengan masa
iaitu berapa lama berat itu di tanggung
mungkin lebih relevan
jika diangkat botol berisi 1.5 liter air dgn satu tgn
jika diangkat dlm masa 5 saat
mungkin tak jadi masalah
cuba kalau 5 minit
5 jam
5 hari etc..
dari 1.5 kg, rase mcm mengangkat 150kg

sama juga dgn bebanan perasaan..........

today's mission is accomplish.feeling better than last week's monday.at least i already proven (on last weekend) that satisfaction can be accomplish without spending a cent. like doing some paintings, ironing a month of clothes to wear to work, being a shopping advisor to my sister. though i didnt manage to cook any meal. need to buy a new mixer. the old 1 had a problem with the mixer rotation. it wont rotate synchronously.

August is coming.a fasting month, a birthday(s) month, independence day and

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etc. planning to go for a getaway uphill.its been a while since i plan any trip. tiba tiba je nak pegi greece. if u watched the sisterhood of travelling pants, the place that Alexis bledel travelled to is greece, athens. that place is so amazing.one of my dream places to visit after paris.

i'm planning to make a board up on a wall to place my dreams and mission.like doing a collage.it would be nice if i had done it earlier. nvm, better late than never.

ok. balik rumah cari board cantik2 ok!

p/s:“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.”

aku tak rasa lethargic. tapi hati ni rase kepenatan yg amat. mungkin penat sebab selalu kena paksa dgn otak supaya berfikiran +ve. tapi diri sendiri mmg skrg menyalahi ke takstabilan hormon. ketakstabilan hormon mmg selalu didalangi dgn keadaan yg bersesuaian. seperti ketika pertambahan kerja yg secara exponan atau ketika hujung bulan yg dimana angka di dalam penyata akaun berkurang dari ribu, ratus dan sa...ketepatan rembesan hormon mmg sgt dikagumi tapi itu bukan ketepatan yg diingini. sekarang dah jumaat. dan di dalam kepala otak aku dh terbayang kan pergerakkan yg akan dilakukan di hujung mggu dan hampir semua imej2 yg telah dilakukan dgn pertolongan hipotalamus semuanya imej2 di dalam rumah..YA. hujung minggu yg akan di habis tanpa pembaziran di rumah!

jika dan hanya jika tidur itu bukan satu pembaziran.

enjoy the weekend ya'll!

jiwa kena kental.
i didn't know it was this hard.
its better die trying to be good than giving up yourself.

p/s: losing material things doesn't affect me. losing faith does.

yesterday events and happening

- Julia ziegler said i look like nabila huda ( errr...)
-Zahnita's daughter prefer people wearing hijab, so she played with us (my sister and i) and ditch other people.
- i got a free CD from Colabor8 ( who?!)
- went home and went straight to bed.

exciting and an eye opener.

p/s: After all, it is hard to master both life and work equally well. So if you are bound to fake one of them, it had better be life

i enjoy surprises

gimme more.

i love good surprises.

two of them last week aren't enough.

“Surprise is the greatest gift which life can grant us.”

imagine while you are sleeping. very soundly. and all of sudden some one tried to wake you up. shaking you up like in a hurry. and when you wake up there was two men wearing a mask staring at you fiercely. forcing you to give up your valuable things while holding a chopper on to your neck. and without hesitation you just surrender your things which you thought is less valuable compare to your own life..imagine how terrified you were during that intense moment... your life is at the hands of robber.. its either you gave in or die.

i already forgotten the feeling years back. quite ok at handling the situation.

not until recently.

a couple of house nearby got burglar.

the creepiness sneaks in yet again.

*sigh

POP DUO

He was born on the same date as the late King of Pop

I was born on the same date as the Queen of Pop

We are living in a Pop culture

what a popping fun!

ironi di pagi hari

dikalangan orang2 yg bersenam di taman, ada seorg je lelaki. mungkin dia teruja dgn hot mama yg memakai hot pants sambil membuat dance workout di tgh badminton court tu. gaya qi qong pakcik tu agak mengaburi niat sebenarnya.

berita @ thestar.com.my. -A Couple Sold Drugs to Pay for Wedding. Bijak sungguh mereka. Kesungguhan mereka utk berkahwin agak dikagumi. malangnya niat tak menghalalkan cara.. that gives me an idea..............

soyez patients

je suis triste
je suis très affecté
je l'aime
qu'il casse mon coeur
soyez patients mon amour
le bonheur est pour ceux qui est patient

silver lining

the feeling of abundance. when you want nothing more or nothing less. contented. that's the way to put it.you feel so grateful that you feel like sharing it with everyone. and its doesn't seem to finish and you still wanted to give more and more.
it will always be gratifying if most of the time i can have the ability and time to help. but as human, our love has a specific amount. therefore in need to be divided fairly according to the needs. or you yourself will be drain out.

“Happiness seems made to be shared.”