Thursday, December 30, 2010

the end or the beginning

moving towards the end, or starting a new beginning.
whatever it is, i still can't believe im going to end my single life soon.
grow up , please!!

p/s: baru last week unpack, pastu kena pack blk.. sila la jgn tiru gaya travel saya.. horrible i tell you..-___-"

Monday, December 13, 2010

Many thanks to everyone.

photos courtesy of Nab's

yes, i got engaged last Saturday.
I've not much to say on what Allah swt hv for me.
terima aja donk.
janji guer ready!

ape2 pun, my current aim is trying make a pause on:
self-indulging on food

and more on:
learn more about marriage life which is currently at nil.
bagaimana menjadi muslimah berhemah

and no, am not going to be another b2b blogger because:
am not really that enthusiast about the preparation
its all will be taken care by my aunties n families. (uncle chef, makcik wedding planner, cousin mua, most of my friends are photographers.. what more could I asked?)
sgt kedekut nak beli magazine pengantin

p/s: kursus kawen la plak *sigh

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

meet the new baby

Pak Teh gv me this ancient Nikon Camera ( older than my age)
Sebenarnya die bg pinjam jek tapi die x ckp kn pulang..hahahhahah

i just check the current price of the lense..almost 3k..wahahah


p/s: fungus dah bersawang.. nak cuci mcm pokai jekkkk -___-"

Friday, November 26, 2010


ni baru sikit..

yg sikit ni la lama lama membukit.

stress yg boleh bg gastrik.

kawan baik saya kata kemenangan akan selalu berpihak kpd org yg sabar.

mushy pasti boleh!

mushy is in peace!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

My Korban for Eidul Adha..

Korban zaman bujang

im here to stay

i just remembered that scene.

he was asking for a friend for mine's number.
and asked me to msg him the number.
i was like ' eh ko kat depan ak ni baik ak bg jek. wat bazir kredit ak jek wat pe'
when i gv it to him, he then realized that he already has the number. it didn't trigger me at that time.
Now i know, he wasn't asking for my friend number, he was actually wanted mine.


im writing about this because it took me a week to realized it.
after 24 years, this blurcase hasn't gone.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

almost the end

i feels like writing was a loooooong and tiring sem. apparently it all going to end this Sunday. the portfolio day. a heart wrenching day. a lot to amendment to do base on the comments. one of the character of an architect is the likeness in commenting every single thing. i love to comment. a bless and a curse at times. the curse is when i comment without even consider the after effect to people who hears it. No one likes to criticize. but it takes a level of maturity for someone to accept critics as a motivational moves to make them a better person.. Same goes to design, as you grew into designing, your design gets better. you know it when you see your first year presentation board and gives it a good laugh.. klaka kalau tgk design first.. haish.. memalukan. -__-"

p/s: a friend comment from the heart. eceh...

Monday, November 8, 2010

Prof Taj nak up kan grade boleh???

the effort by being +ve is the same as being -ve. might as well stay +ve and be surprise by all the happy thing that we attracts. we gain nothing but upsetting things by being -ve.


Monday, November 1, 2010

selalu yg perempuan excited. lelaki yg cuak.

ni perempuan yg cuak, laki excited lebey.

klaka sungguh.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

about a month to go

Thursday, October 21, 2010

better together


I accidentally e-mail my Design assignment instead the Project Drawing to the architect. Bummer!!


I left my favorite heels at Mcd Kl Sentral. Only to realized it when reaching the office.


Tuesday, October 19, 2010

It is Weird Seeing Yourself on Video

Friday, October 15, 2010

though you are not a person or any tangible things, but i do miss you blog.

like this Murni's signature drink.

just be happy.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

more time, more helping hands

The hearts blooming,
The works souring,
The school works stressing,

October do end soon.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Two human loves make one divine

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

bakar sampai jadi arang

I hate it when reality hits.
I knew it was coming.
but not from you
then I'll be confuse on whom to hate.

Monday, September 27, 2010


tried on mom's crutches, OMG it was effin' hard. wonder how ppl who hv to used it in their lifetime. *grateful mode*

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Something that light up my everyday

Coming Soon!

too early too soon

its upside down after raya.. suddenly im changing hat as a housewives (walaupun blum kawen pun).. mom, got her metatarsal bone fractured on the 3rd of raya and now she is on 2 weeks leave with cast on her feet. i totally forgotten about the design and studies. asyik fikir nak masak ape utk breakfast, lunch, dinner.. effin' tired..hope mom will recover in full health soon. Amin..

mummy muda.LOL

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

it happens for a reason

i thought i was far from being a demanding person.
i was dead.
dead wrong.

but then again. when you know yourself capable of delivering the best, why should you settle for second best?
raya rembau

Monday, September 13, 2010

10 things all single people must do

Here, we offer a checklist of experiences for single people to try before settling down.

1. Travel alone. Whether you’re trying to find your way through the Paris Metro or the London Underground, haggling over a painting in Mexico or choosing where to bed down in the Badlands, traveling by yourself builds a confidence you simply can’t get any other way. In an unfamiliar place, you have to make decisions by yourself, for yourself every day, which will build a self-reliance you’ll always treasure — even when you become part of a twosome.

**DONE- was left alone in London for 3 Days. sebab hilang passport akibat camwhore bnyk sgt.

2. Wallow in the ache of a broken heart. Oh, the pain. The agony. The pints of Ben & Jerry’s in front of the cable TV. Yep, getting dumped is beyond awful, but guess what? It’s the only way that you’ll develop the empathy you’ll need to be a better partner in a relationship. Because if you’re sensitive to the grief someone else has caused you, you’re less likely to do the same to anyone else. So, consider this painful milestone a lesson in karma that’ll serve you well as you travel through your dating days.

**hmmm..i think i cried harder when i miss my prayer compare to being dumped.

3. Spend a weekend with a married couple your age. On lonely nights, it’s common for single folk to envision marriage as a cozy scene from a classic film or mail-order catalog. But by spending 48 hours with a real couple, you’ll learn that in between the snuggling and pet names comes growling, bickering, silent treatments and maybe even a slammed door or two before they ultimately compromise. It will show you what married life is like, warts and all, so you won’t over-idealize the two-becomes-one phenomenon again.

** gilo apo nak nyebok kat newly wed house.

4. Don’t come home all night. That’s right, wild thing. Crash on a friend’s couch, take your friends up on that offer of a last-minute trip… Once you have a mate, you can’t just take off on your own without explanation. And, truthfully, you won’t want to. So if you don’t have someone you have to call and check in with every few hours, take this opportunity to check out!

**Done it zillion of times.

5. Stand up for a cause you care about. Whether you volunteer to help register voters for the next election (why not start early?) or convince your neighborhood or apartment complex to start recycling, get fired up over an issue while you have the time to devote to it. It will remind you that while, yes, finding your soul mate is pretty important, there are other issues at stake in the world that could use your help. And besides, the big-heartedness you’ll be cultivating is very attractive.

**DONE (xkan nak elaborate all the good stuff i did? habes pahala den)

6. Have a real adventure. Learn to fly a plane, surf some big waves, or start your own business. Give yourself a thrill by doing something just for you, just for the experience — without having someone at home worrying about you or nagging you not to. Oh, and one more gift with purchase: Think about how much fun you’ll have telling your next date about your daring experience.

**ALMOST DONE ( nak bungee jumping jek tggl)

7. Learn how to take care of yourself. Being solo shouldn’t keep you from cooking for yourself, so learn how to make an impressive meal for one (even if it’s mac and cheese with your own added favorite extra thrown in). While you’re at it, learn how to back up your hard drive and sew on replacement buttons. You’ll feel strong and self-sufficient — and you’ll be armed with skills to share when you are in a relationship.

**I love taking care of myself.heh

8. Buy something hugely impractical just because you love it. Once you’re in a relationship, you’ll start thinking about your partner before you purchase pricey items — not just “Will he or she hate it?” but “Is this where I want to be putting my money if we’re saving for a wedding?” The single life means a single bank account and an excuse to blow a wad of cash without (some of the) guilt. So, make yourself happy and buy something you crave, whether it’s an expensive vintage movie poster or a decked-out mountain bike.

**oh yeah... all those heels and tons of clothes. need i say more.

9. Develop a hobby. Learn to woodwork, play acoustic guitar, speak French, DJ on turntables, or make digital short films for fun. Of course you can (and should) still have hobbies when you’re dating someone, but your solo time is prime time to devote yourself to something that makes life more interesting for you — and makes you more interesting to others.

**my photog technic is improving. ah oui! Paris je taime!!

10. Be completely, utterly, wholly single for at least three months. Hopping wildly from one relationship to the next can do you a disservice. Why? Because you’re never more ripe for self-reflection than when you’re on your own — and the more you know yourself, the more likely you are to find someone who’s right for the real you.

**Like always.duh-huh

almost complete kan?? but i still want to continue doing No. 1,5,6,8,9,10. So, How?

Thursday, September 9, 2010

an hour to go b4 im off to kampung


Wednesday, September 8, 2010

bygone is bygone

So you decided to see me out of the blue,
should i let you come over?
i think you're doing fine..
that girl in your arms does she know where you come from?

Almost made me move out of town,
you don't want me to be around, i stayed anyway,
just in case...

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

beautiful monster

oh yeah.. raya is just around the corner. same ol' same ol' raya like always. might prolly next year would be different i guess. play it cool je this raya kan..orang bg lagu raya pun malas nak dgr.
i should be receiving a loud BOOOO from the audience if doing a one man show.
sorry.. but all I can think about now is finishing my final design. . but i don't feel left out cause i enjoy doing it ( hope the enjoyment would last).. its hard for me get into this kinda mood ok.. i need to keep the vibration in the same wavelength... with a lil' discrepancy, i might be off to s'pore or Pangkor. you'll never know. Perak pun boleh. gahhh... I always act on impulse.. but at the same time kinda control freak. boleh?

p/s: just a lil bit more to achieve my ramadhan target.. mushy boleh!yeah

Thursday, September 2, 2010

eden nak masak lomang!

morning peeps. selamat hari raya (especially to myself.hah). anyway, it seems that i lack the interest in writing this Ramadhan since I currently prefer posting photos as it can tell thousands of story (tp sbnrnya mmg xde idea pun sng cite). my raya holiday would only be the one stated on calender. not more nor less. *sigh. it is so hard to keep the annual leave when theres a lot of celebration going on. and for all i know its 3 month to go before December (lama gle x travel). good news is, I just got my first offer as wedding photog. At last my camera is made to good use besides taking self portrait.heh.

*raya mode is in*p/s: nak pki D90 boleh???

Monday, August 30, 2010

Families are like fudge - mostly sweet with a few nuts

pose tak serius

pose tak serius lagi

pose serius

pose serius lagi

Saturday, August 28, 2010

think tank

i might not be the best person to say it right nor to judge people. but i do think, from what i've been taught, when Allah swt give us the blessing for breaking fast, it is cruel for us to neglect His order...

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Feeling so Girl Power Today!

Monday, August 23, 2010


had a fun breaking fast date with primary schoolmates.. primary tuhz...12 years ago....I remember vividly, the first time we did breaking fast together which was last year, most of the topic were about studies, jobs and now, after a year, the topic drastically changed to marriage, wedding. it prolly because one of us are getting married( tapi sbnrnya sbb sorg tu pakcik die Rizalman.ceh) anyhow, im not surprise if the next up coming reunion, the topic is about babies, nak anta anak tuition, susu dah mahal..etc hahahahha

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

I ain't cooler than ya

tbe2 je nak nigga2.eceh.

Monday, August 16, 2010


its 16th of August for the 24th times in my life. Thank you for the wish people!XOXO

Friday, August 13, 2010

Between the wish and the thing life lies waiting

we improve more when being praise rather than criticize. In this case, my lil' bro has improve a lot in being a responsible boy. Since, alia came home for her summer break, we had him to lead us in prayers (sebelum ni ade jugak tp mcm malas2) we praised and gv encouragement for doing it ( tapi kadang2 kakak2 die demand suruh bc surah pendek2 je..LOL) I'm kinda grateful how he turns out. nanti b'day amir angah bg reward ekk..
and Ramadhan has been good for a start. i'm kinda like it. like they say, a good start is already half done. =)

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

fatigués mais heureux

I'm kinda overwhelmed by the drastic change that happened throughout this past few weeks. from singular to plural, my lil' brother starts asking beauty tips from ( oh yeah, his growing up and becoming one of the hot stuff at school is hard to keep up) a few of my friends has already graduated in B.Arch. I"m going to move out with my sis and staying in Damansara which will take place in November. Classes was so hectic ( because it always collides with the time i need to socialize with my gfs) sbnrnya kelas anil tu lg kesian kot kan..heheheh.. i was so tired last weekend to the point when we went karaoke, I slept when they were busy singing... tomorrow is the start of Ramadhan. wish i can fulfill my aim this year. haiyakkkkkkkkkkk...

feels like fainting.tbe2 dh nmpk masjid kat luar tu.. -__-"

Monday, August 9, 2010

Keep it in Silence

Reason for body aching II

Aainaa and friend's Convocation Day.

Reason for body aching I

Riadhi & Ida Pre-Wed

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

misi inspirasi

currently I'm on a mission to read on as much of architecture book I can get. It started out about 2 weeks ago. the books actually varies from architecture book and my all time fav genre- inspirational books. So, early morning at 7am as i reach KL Sentral, I would have breakfast at McD. I would order McD breakfast special, rotating the four meal with a coffee each time. So, i would use the time there to finish at least a chapter of the book. This morning, due to a sleep deprivation, terlelap sambil baca. @_@

so, keep in mind that i should have an adequate sleep in order for the mission to succeed.

terkial-kial nak study, sbb blk rumah kopem tdo pnye....

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

mises à jour actuelles

*I only manage to recover 10% of my deleted photo. better than nothing huh?
*Is in a Boredom of Oz
*Just realized that it has been almost 4 month since she had traveled far far away
Someone in the office did a counting on a number of time I'm mentioning Air Asia is now flying to Korea (stress ok!)
*August, September, October, November, December.......4 month to go -___-"
*I think i can plan a short trip in between those month...nak pegi pegi...........s'pore sbb pic album s'pore sume hancusss.....
*design progress sgt lembab mcm tisu..
*sgt berharap Ramadhan thn ni lebih baik dari tahun lepas yg penuh dgn lara...........
*always likes to take photo, but when someone asked, 'nak amik gamba bley?'.. what the hell kann..
*hunger for inspirationn urghhh.. nak jalan2 tgk bangunan..*sigh

one of the recovered photo

p/s: i hope i wont get Alzheimer and forget that i've been to those places... makan kismis bnyk2..

remember how hard it is to change yourself, think about changing other people, almost impossible.

August is a month where i likes to talk about growth. Ring a bell to those who knows ( x perlu bg reminder ye). Age is just a number. Growing old is mandatory growing up is optional. that is why a half century man can act like a boy who just hit puberty and a mother and daughter can look like sisters when out in public. nonetheless, there always a kid in everyone of us especially in having fun. imagine doing fun stuff the adults way? errrr.. A TOTAL BOREDOM! so, brings out the kid in you when having fun! baru best cenghitu..

This period in the early 20's where you already have a basic idea of who you are, what you want, though it might not be thoroughly cook, but the seeds of idea has already planted in our minds (ye mmg terpengaruh dgn Inception)... This young thoughts so to say is fresh, virgins and yet to be challenge in the real world and when challenges comes, we are force to challenge the thought.. its either change the thought or stick to it no matter what..the thought becomes a standing ego. I'm too at guilt of trying to be always right all the time. but soon I realized there is always a 2 side of everything. good and bad, right and wrong, winning and losing, it just depends on at which angle you see it.. im a bit tone down at the arguing part. kadang2 malas nak argue. arguing with a fool, there are 2 fools. let bygone be bygone.

itula die perkara yg berlaku bila menghadapi hari2 tua. LOL

Thursday, July 29, 2010

gamba pengantin plg skit.. LOL
‎"Do you know what is better than charity and fasting and prayer? It is keeping peace and good relations between people, as quarrels and bad feelings destroy mankind." [Bukhari & Muslim]

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

i hate to write when the moods are at sucky level. that explain the short hiatus. even attending wedding seems like a task ( tapi xpela, nak tgk alia pki baju rizalman pastu duduk kat pelamin naz great idea's..mesmerizing..) but anyhow, never regret. If it's good, it's wonderful. If it's bad, it's experience. so, i supposed i hv tons of experiences.
anyhow, i still have faith cause
faithful in small things is where the strength lies.

esokla post gamba kawen..

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Give Me Back My Broken Parts

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

2nd hope

I asked the head of IT department whether he can recover the files I had deleted in the office PC. Particularly my travel photos which i had initially stored in that PC before I own my less-than-month-old-stolen-laptop. macam xde harapan tapi masih berharap...harap2 la..... T_T

Monday, July 19, 2010


the my-house-got-burgled-and-I-lost-my-less-than-a-month-old-laptop incidents still bugs me. who's house got burgled more than three times?
anyway, that morning after the police arrived doing their investigation thingy, i rushed to attend this futsal charity organize by a good friend which i had promise to take part. despite the bitter pill i had to swallow, i tell you it was hard but i glad i did it. had fun meeting the kid of Rumah Amal Bestari.
this girl caught my eyes, annisa ( im bad at remembering names..rase nye betul la tu kot)..

me: lawanya clown tu buat kan bunga..
annisa: akak amik la belon bunga ni.
me: eh, mn boleh. bwk la baik main kat rumah.
annisa: saya bukan ade sape2 pun.

i swear i could have cried that instance. but i do went teary. the kid at 10 years old can be so strong despite knowing their condition. mine was 1% of what they hv been through kan..
Treasure your relation not possessions.

Saturday, July 17, 2010


i don't know what is more devastated than having your house broken into and your laptop that u just bought a month ago got stolen on your first day of class.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

mimpi mushy

im in paranoia.

btw, zal which part of my writings that inspired u? i wonder.

back to the story.they were talking about design classes over lunch. i had a very delicious lunch thank you. Common words i heard ' ala, student UM mesti power design'. aku stress di situ. hish. you just dont know the pressure they had put by saying that. OMG. but i do felt quite relief about the fact that i'm not going to be in the same studio with my colleagues. kalau tak mesti lagi stress. I CANNOT STAND COMPARISON! jahat skit. maaf ya.but honestly, when it comes to designing, my self esteem sinks at the bottom. yeah. but now, trying to turn on a new leaf so that the mind thinks otherwise. *happy thought*happy thought*

anyway, this is how i spent my last weekend of freedom.

water massage, satey sedap, sotong paul sedap.. nyum2..


SEMANGAT DESIGN KEMBALI!! haiyakkkkkkkkkk!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

konon la xde weekend plan..hahahah

ni ape!!!


so it begins

i treated people the way that i want to be treated.
please don't get it wrong.
it will create awkwardness, silences that distance the friendship that had bonded, if u think otherwise.
sometimes ignorance is bliss.
but the ignorance i did drives me nuts.
yes. i finally confessed.


letargi hati.
tapi masih mampu berdiri
dan berlari.

its what you do, not what happen matters

how do you react when someone said, ' i dreams about you last night?' not once but thrice.. not to mention to write them in case it'll be forgotten. It was indeed shocking but knowing them all this while, I couldn't be bothered. might be i don't usually dream while sleeping, that people get me in their dreams. ye. positip habes! LOL
whatever it is, my holiday weekend ended last week. sob sob. though it was filled with activities. it is hard to accept that I ain't gonna have no weekend no more. hoping that the studio lecturer is lenient towards the student. Aminn 100x..

tibe2 cuak plak nak design.


ok bye.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Partner & Co.

i would prolly felt better if Alia had put Mursyidah Ismail & Family.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

like old times!

-when sisters stand shoulder to shoulder, who stands a chance against us?

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

sounds boring but nottttttt

when asked, ' mushy ko ni x ske main game,x tgk movie dvd kat rumah pun ko x ske, abih tu kat rumah ko buat ape je?'

my ans may sounds boring, when not socializing with my girlfriends, i like to read articles, books, play scrabbles, do crafty things.

but seriously, computer games doesn't interest me at all. farmville pun x penah main kot.
but i felt good when my sis confirmed, ' takpe ngah, ko tak main game kurang wat mende2 lara nih'

terima kasih.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

football fever.

so not me. but am having sleep deprive. not because of watching the match, but doing this instead,
huargggggggggggggghhhhh!! ngantuk weyh!!!