Temasek

nak pergi s'pore ni. tapi boleh ke pergi sana tanpa shopping. klu anda mursyidah ismail mungkin perkara ini mustahil. sbb mursyidah ismail itu sendiri rase mustahil. tapi die tetap akan berusaha supaya tak shopping sgt kat s'pore ( tadi kate x nak shoppping skrg taknak shopping sgt..ape nih..baru 2 ayat dah tergugat keimanan).. tapi tapi..haih.. mcm mane boleh tak shopping di kota keriangan itu..ish ish.. agak mustahil...tp akan cuba..ye berusaha.. sbb konsep ke s'pore adala nak tlg aainaa baainaa buat case study dkt clarke quay . tp dia kate nak pegi shopping jugak.. so kn tlg die shopping..wakakkaka.. oh tidak..saya tgh mencari alasan nak shopping..hati kata ya tp otak kata tidak dan dompet kata jangan....

dah2.. hati dgn otak ni selalu tak mau bersatu.. boleh tak korang kerjasama menangani masalah ni!! ni asyik gado je!!!

kali terakhir pergi spore adalah 12 thn dulu.. agak basi ye.. mmg pun.. tu pun sbb mmg duduk JB di Taman Megah Ria, Masai Johor dan Taman Molek JB.. dan Bapak ku mmg lahir di s'pore tp di besarkan di Melaka. so adela saki baki sedara mara di sana.. tp fakta yg plg menarik sekali adalah, nenek sedara guer pernah jadi Miss Singapore masa zaman 60'an.. cool tak..hot nanna.. dia la org pertama yg masa pergi raya rumah die siap bagi ktorg 3 beradik perempuan make-up bagai..sgt chomel kay... dan satu lagi fakta sepupu sepapat s'pore yg agak ketara ialah mereka tak pernah tgk ayam itik secara live.. cuma yg selalu di lihat adalah ayam KFC dan itik panggang di restoran bak kut teh! serius! pantang tgk itik dan ayam pasti di kejar.... bandar sungguh mereka.. tp itu dah 12 thn dahulu.. skrg mungkin mereka dah lupa mcm mana rupa ayam dan itik...

oh s'pore mcm mana la rupa kamu skrg..

yet again

the feeling of being vulnerable

-your shoulder feels very light, as if your hand are losing grip from the shoulder socket.
-weird
-those butterflies. urgh
-but it feels right

spiritual growth is about letting yourself free and being vulnerable to whats coming.
i'm letting myself being vulnerable.yet again.

woohoo!

woohoo..its monday morning ppl! no blues coming out yet, alhamdulillah. i did a conversation about life with a close friends. such a heavy topic to talk about. its a soul- self-belived kinda talking. where it all been questioned.
your journey in life is like a map.your ambition, life target, is being put on a map along with what you are capable of doing. therefore the map should be clear and realistic. but our map need not to be fix. we have to challenge, compare the map with other people so as to make it more realistic and achievable. if we refuse to challenge our map, we are actually living in our own world, so dreamlike, and therefore make our map so vague and somewhat fantasy.
i'm rearranging my map and designing it toward my capability and target.

women can't read maps really well.hence, my map is very women friendly...heh

sgt perempuan

perempuan dalam skop yg lebey kecil saya.ye saya perempuan berkromosom XX. walaupun dulu nenek selalu cerita saya ganeh mcm jantan masa kecil, dia sendiri terkejut tgk saya membesar menjadi perempuan yg lulus mengikut ciri yg dikehendaki. memori yg saya jadi ganas tu mmg agak kurang, tapi yg masih ingat rakan-rakan keganasan saya semmgnya rmi lelaki.. smpi satu famili kenen2 kan saya dgn anak jiran sebelah sbb saya selalu main badminton dgn die setiap ptg..

ye. budak lelaki berambut sprt org asli penan dan gigi rongak di dpn..hohohohoho...tp ketika itu mmg la nmpk chomel kiut miut....tp serius tak tergoda pun....maaf..next!
ok kembali kpd topik asal.

jap2. topik die sbnrnya adalah perempuan dan shopping.

mmg dah menjadi kewajipan setiap bulan kena pegi shopping. mmg rutin bulanan ketika paycheck smpi.. pernah la sy membuat eksperimen kpd diri sendiri secara tak langsung dgn membeli stok2 kasut selama sethn ( ye sethn ye kwn2..cubalah agak brp pasang) disebabkan ada sale yg agak gle.tp sbnrnya klu sale mmg jadi agak gle sedikit... sbb murah bli bnyk tp utk sedapkan hati je ckp utk kegunaan time raya la or utk stok sethn...skrg alasan raya sgt kuat digunakan utk shopping ok!!!.. hahahha..alasan semata-mata. ye.. tetapi ketika membuat rutin membeli-belah tingkap, pada waktu biasa, mmg akan ter'beli' pnye kasut apabila ade yg berkenan di hati dan rase berbaloi.. oh tidak... saya mmg pembeli secara impulse..nak kn betul impuls ni.. kn murder this bad impulses..
jadi, secara konklusinya, jgn membeli brg sekali bnyk.. beli sepasang setiap bln..ok...baru puas..

dan satu fakta yg menarik...

A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs. A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need but it's on sale.

p/s: rase nye kn ade cabinet kasut sndiri dlm bilik utk sorok stok2 kasut yg ade..bwh katil dah penuh..haih...

I know but what can I do

yeap.. 2009 is a travel year for me indeed. i never thought i would be traveling this much. if i were to listed out the places i had been and the one i already planned and not to mention there would prolly be an instantaneous, spontaneous out of mind trip later- i myself would be blow out of water thinking, did i just did that!!!!OMG...i think this is my mom biggest alibi for not buying me a car. with this two leg i already went everywhere, imagine owning a car, i would prolly be in a quest traveling from malaysia to Agra to see Taj Mahal (see!!!)...
A friend once ask me- aren't you bored with working...u know, its one tough question to answer. Since it is normal for ppl who entered working world being sorta shock in depress imagining that they would be doing the same thing for the next 40 years..gulp..i know that i would be experiencing the same thing. So, i plan. I plan whenever i feel that life sorta bore me to death. planning made me see that tomorrow is a new day to start everything.

“What we are today comes from our thoughts of yesterday, and our present thoughts build our life of tomorrow: Our life is the creation of our mind.”
prince siddartha

to my surprise, my cathexis in planning trips went so obvious when someone offered me to become a travel agent... reality check people!!! i want to be a designer!!!
and suddenly ppl are asking me how to go there, how much do you need to spend to go here, when will air asia going to make another free tix promo.... tp seronok je buat2 mende camni..
so, correction- i'm a designer cum travel agent...hhahahah

*note of a new plan- Istanbul trip with mummy and frens in 2010...taking MAS is so typical and expensive. Try Air Asia- Pegasus Airline. save 50%. and you got to go to 2 places at 1 time....

pelik yg x best

selalunya adik beradik perempuan akan gaduh kalau terpakai personal stuff masing2 mcm make-up n baju2 kan? tp kalau gaduh ngan adik lelaki sbb pki make-up kakak die camne? xdela make-up lipstick bagai tu. tp compact powder, perfume, face mask n mende2 utk pamper kan diri kte sbg perempuan. tp yg ske cilok2 brg aku skrg ni adik lelaki aku.cis.. dasar lelaki metro. brg aku pun nak kebas. pandai plak tu pilih yg mahal2.cap ayam reject.. urgh...

“No one is free, even the birds are chained to the sky.”

two days ago, as i was walking back from the office, theres this couple of boys loitering at the Carrefour staircase wandering around doing nothing. As I pass by them, they asked me ' Kak ade singgit?' their skinny feature and the face like u haven't ate anything for a day made me took my purse out.. but sadly, i'm out of small change at that time. I said sorry to them and walk away with guilt.. mende2 camni mmg la aku cpt beno kesian..haih...naluri keibuan la konon2nye..hehhehhe.

yesterday, i saw the same kids again, with the previous guilt i had, i double the amount of money they asked.. xpe tu utk semlm x terbagi..

those kids reminds me of a relatives of mine who sort of the black sheep of the family. he ran out of his house couple of times mixing with the wrong group but not to severe like doing drugs or something. but for me it seems quite a serious matter. when asked about why he ran out of the house, he simply said 'Nak bebas'. i just when what the efff man..you are young and and yet to know the real world and you are demanding a freedom!! hah!. an ultimate freedom does not exist in the world young boy!

“While we are free to choose our actions, we are not free to choose the consequences of our actions.”

So, if you choose this kinda 'freedom' you say you want. for all you know you are choosing to prison yourself forever. but i dont think its totally his fault. There are reasons while children these days chose the 'freedom' = lack of attention and love from the parents. It is a common problem faced by many parents especially from the middle class where both parent are working et cetera2 while neglecting their childrens needs. you can never blame the parents totally because what they are doing now is for the best of their children. But sometimes things can go out of balance. Love and attention is replaced by materials. an easy solution w/o thinking the consequences. raising a children is like chewing on pebbles...i refuse to elaborate since i'm not in their shoes.

ok..i sound like a psychologist plak dah..lin said i read too much books..and no, i'm not an alpha female..hahaha

who are you again???

never thought it would happen
the moment where the history came flashing back
'what a small world'- while rolling the eyes
my 'small' little world doesn't includes you anyway
but it did
my ego has diminish everything
and now
you are just an acquaintance i met in life.
so long sucker!
hah!

Twice it is

Do you know mothers day are celebrated on a different day in some countries?i celebrated mom's mother's day twice this year. the UK's mother's day is on 22nd of March and Malaysia is on the 10th of May. So, my sis and i gave her a gift on both dates, since we were at the particular place on that particular date. how lucky she was..

road-road

1. when planning, dont just suddenly tell it out loud about it to everyone, some ppl will startled and thinks it is a silly idea. unless most of your frens are the spontaneous type...but to tell u the truth is most people are less likely to be like that. propose your trip to some1 close and ask for their honest opinion.

2. Please, pretty please, if you are the one who suggested the trip, be in charge of everything, don't ask someone to plan it for you, if you did, the chances that the plan will work is 10%. be enthusiast about the trip.

3. the date of trip planned is propotional to the budget that will be spend for the trip. so, if you plan a small trip that is low budget the trip should be done within 2 weeks of time. whereas if its a trip to another country, within the region=3 month ok, like to europe or further up = 6 month.

4. you don't 1 to be overspend on a trip. so, get as much information as possible about the place. to save money on travel like air tickets, accommodation, do aware of the cheap tix offer by budget airline, fairly cheap hotels etc..for all you know if you can get a free place to stay, you'll be saving half of the travel expenses.. too go way cheaper and during good weather, choose dates between the low season and peak season.

5. if you are going to a place with different culture and believes, and with both your male and female friends, do consider their needs. if you do, they will be confident in joining your organized trip.e.g. for muslims traveling to europe or india, convinced them that it is easy to pray and the toilets there are clean. women does consider those stuff during traveling.

p/s: bak kate take bane, go travel, open up your eyes to new things! be inspired!

i'm out of word to describe things lately. picture does say a thousand words.tough times.

May day! May day!

its already May,how time flies. only during working life that i realized how precious time is..its all about time you know. ' if u cant get this done by today you are out', 'I want it done now'....tomorrow can't wait....bla bla bla... procrastinate is not and answer anymore.. the problem won't be solve by itself unless you face it.if you are not part of the solution you are part of the problem. but sometimes ppl are being neurotic u know. i admit being 1 sumtime. it is so confusing. it is so hard to pin point what is your responsibilities. sometimes you think it is yours, but other ppl had done it but when no ones doing it you are ought to blame.. life is difficult- one of the greatest truth on earth. accept it and you'll be ok... I'm going through life changes internally/spiritually and it is exciting yet exhausting.... its better doing it now rather than never at all.