M is for magic

'Salam and morning ppl!!

i once said to a person ' nak buat pe la plan2 smpi in detail sgt..relak sudey' (sumtin' liddat lor)
That was actually when i was still studying.
The time when i thought in life u just need to go with the flow.
Ye la kan, klu kte plan smgt, last x jadi kan ke frust menonggeng..
so, i dont really ever bought his idea of planning things..sgt skema..( riak sungguh!!)
I even promise myself not to be liddat la ( lagi la riak!!!)
but..

after i graduated and started working, i end up doing exactly as what he did!!
yeah2.. now i know how important is planning.. ( terasa hina sudey)
i realized that if you dont plan, you never get anythings done.
my free time is very2 limited, and if i dont really plan it well, i just end up thinking what am i suppose to do, and just after i come to decide on what to do, dah esk keje..damn...
and then i end up having Monday blues..( menyesal x buat ape2 weekend)

my term in planning doesn't really means that u need a jounal, daily planner ( tu sgt la skema..tp sbnrnya lg bgs) Since i only applied the simplest way in planning my daily life.. (hanya berlaku dalam otak sahaja). here how it is, before i go to sleep, i ( ingat..dalam otak je tau) review back on what had been accomplished and what is the things that i need to do the next day..
tapi yang paling penting tu adalah niat kita kerana 4W1 s.w.t...

So now, i already plan 2 years in advance.. ( dulu plan sebulan pun rase sgt skema..isk isk)
in 2011 i plan on finishing my master and going to pilgrim to Mekah..(MY MEGA PLANNING EVER OWHKAY!!)

the moral of the story is, dont deny ppl opinions instantly w/o ever giving it a thought..you'll end up doing exactly the same.. (macam saya)

This incident reminds me after i read a really good inspiratonal book by sis Zabrina A. Hassan- Life is an Open Secret..

daa..


p/s: i like being around ppl with passion in what they do... theatre made me met those ppl..

the love of julia

Teater Monolog "Cinta Julia" di Stor Teater DBP

Hati semakin retak seribu....
arjunaku..
hanya sejenak kau sempat menjadi kekasihku...
ternyata kau bukan.....
Di manakah kan ku temui kamu.....
Di tempat Adam dan Hawa ditemukan.....
Di tempat kekasihku disemayamkan....
Maafkan aku...
wahai kekasih maha agung...
dengan kehendakmu
aku akan datang bertamu...
hanya kau di hatiku dan
temukanlah aku dengan
bias di wajahmu ..DI RUMAH HATIKU...

p/s: puisi indah ini xde kena mengena dgn tuan blog(sebab bkn dia yg karang)....tapi ia indah..

complainers no more

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

You know what, if i want to said it out loud,work does take a toll on my life. If the thing called faith that is not building a wall of patient and passion inside of me, i would prolly be quitting by now..

I thought about complaining about office work...

but then again..

The Prophet (peace be upon him) was born without a father to love him, his mother died when he was 6, lived at mercy of his loving gradfather and uncle, boycotted by his own community, thrown out of his country, been thrown dirt at by little children, lost a spouse who loved, supported and believed in him, lost his beloved sons at very young age, accused of being a liar. was being ridiculed and humiliated by his own people, saw his friends being tortured and killed, and was so poor that he used to tie stones in his stomach to reduse his hunger...
(taken from Zabrina A. Bakar writings)

Astagfirullah... sungguh tak bersyukur nya mursyidah bt ismail....

Now, i realized, my life wasn't so bad at all...

p/s: Allah does not burden a soul beyond its capacity- Al-Baqarah 2:286

aku.seorang.yang.lemah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ufgJWGmax-A

'Salam..

I'm currently watching a video about a protest made against anti-tomboy Fatwa on You-tube. Just let me refresh you about the Fatwa thingy...the National Fatwa Council recently decided that, for a women with chromosome XX ( some ppl are confuse owh kay!!) to behave and act resembles a man is Haram ( A BIG NO NO!!!).....
but before i go further in to this topic let me just say that I know little about it and if i write anything wrong do please correct me...

One of the hadith from Rasullah s.aw,

from 'Ibn Abbas (Radhiyallaahu nhu) reported that Rasulullah (Sallallaaahu layhi Wasallam) cursed the hermaphrodite from the men and the like from the women.'

So, it is already been cleared that to behave and act resembles a man is a BIG NO NO!! since 1437 years ago....might be the fatwa is stated out to specify in detail about the Hadith..

but the problem is that, the one who did the protest aren't even muslim and they just went out in public and shouting that the National Fatwa Council is --stupid fucker-- astagfirullahalazim..
i just dont know what the world has turn out in to....

huru-hara (my fav word at the moment) dunia ini...

salah satu petanda akhirat semakin dekat??!!!

tetapi perkara yang berlaku adalah yang telah di benarkan oleh 4W1 s.w.t juga..atas perbuatan kita juga...

i only believe in, seeing the world as my heart is..
because if u see the world as it is, they would prolly no peace in 4W1 s.w.t land...

What goes around Comes around...

'Salam..

my uncle paid a visit just now, and i just found out 1 thing...mom's obsessive compulsive characteristic (disorder bunyi cam x best) really does runs in the family...my uncle told us a story where he was afraid to cross the hanging bridge in Sunway Lagoon just because theres no tree underneath it for him to hang on to incase the bridge snap off...if it were my aunty instead of my uncle i would probably understand (because my aunty is much of a soft spoke and lady like kinda women) BUT his husband??!! Sunway Lagoon hanging bridge??!! come on...

and on my mum sides of story, which just happened few days a go, ( i can make book about this too--> entitled worry mommy!!) i was working late in the office.. (this week was soo hectic...my hair is thinning because of it)... and i already inform my sis about it since she is the loyal sis who always pick me up at the station.....so, being a careless person ( trying to overcome it...sooon) i couldnt bother to charge my hp battery until its really dead which in this case happened just after i messaged my sis when to pick me up n blah blah.....meanwhile, my mum who is staying inside her room keep on trying to call me...( theres 1 time she missed call me like 44 times) untill by the time her obsessive compulsive had reach the peak she started calling my office and asking my colleague about me... yup....my mum had transfered her obsessiveness to them... i wasnt aware of the situation up until i charged my phone battery before getting ready to bed, when both of my colleague called to make sure i was ok and at the same time nag me about walking back home alone....
ya, saya faham ini semua salah saya..tapi saya mungkin tidak akan dapat mengelak daripada melakukan nya sekali lagi..harap anda semua faham...

but the problem is ( just to prove my theory) it wasnt my first time working out late ( theres time i even missed the last train back home) infact i never was home early ( the earliest in my record is 8.30 pm which only happened twice)...just its so happened that my hp is out and i was working late, my mum cant reach me and suddenly BAM! panic attack!!!

i cant blame her mother instinct though...( its importat at times) but i think her characteristic has becaome more obvious ever since grandma had moving in with us ...she can only stand to stay with us for a bout a month..reason being is she cant stop worrying about me working up late at night and etc.....the first night when she was with us, where of course i went back home late, she had my mum called me to be back home as soon as possible.... grandma even permits my mum of going out at night too...even to buy food for tomorrows breakfast at the corner shop.....

from the uncle to my mom, grandma, ( even all of my aunties..their stories even funnier..i tell you..hahaha) all of them is a worrier...

its funny, gives headache sometimes but overall its uniquely Seri Baya's!!!!

but i dont think the characeristic had passes down to my siblings since most of us is quite laid back, relax....it misses us but i hope it misses our future children too...

imagine my children ( berangan nye..xpe2 berangan tu free...) had the obsessive compulsive disorder...........

child: ummi, adik nak exam ni, ummi tak risau ke?
ummi: exam ke? ooo..xpe anak ummi pandai....layan je la....

tak ke huru hara ...


hahahah....


daa.....

tahu tapi buat2 x tahu...

'salam..

the first thing that trigger the ppl around me when i just started working (beside asking-bile nak blanje mkn ni? because every time dpt gaji pun tny benda yg sama kan??) is--- when r u getting married..blah blah blah... they are the ones who push the panic button for me..isk isk..mane aci kan?? just recently my cousin of the same age suddenly pop up the question-- bile nak confirm...ade bf? ceh..ingat nak tny ble nak confirm keje ke...ish..but i couldn't care less to answer his questions because he himself is still single... but its the irony thing is, all my cousins of my age is still not attach to anyone... tulah keturunan seri baya yang lahir tahun1986 kot...nauzubillah...huhuhu...

anyway, anything that involve feelings and future happiness is something that i think is a serious and private matter...if i were to discuss it here, might else well i publish a romance novel.. (Habiburrahman pun kalah kot..hehehehe) its not that I'm against marriage ( sape la x nak kawen..rugi betul) its just that i'm not attach to anyone yet..so whats the point of discussing it rite? but dont worry its in the future somehow....insya4W1...

p/s: so excited to see my 2 mates getting engage..sgt chomel mereka berdua.....

it really is the mushy part...damn

Assalamualaikum w.b.t..

i kinda stop writing for a while. Most things happened that involved other ppl feeling (as well as mine) that i don't really want to share with others. plus, working scheduled had turned most of my normal routine up side down...but overall everything is well put off...

but still i did manage to read my old post back when i'm still studying.. funny though, i cant believed I'm the 1 who wrote those things..gaggagagga

at first i was planning to delete all the blogs and retire from blogging, but after reading it all over again, rase mcm rugi je...

ok la..from now on..i'll try to write sumthing here..

i miss blogging..