While we are free to choose our actions, we are not free to choose the consequences of our actions

have ever met someone who always stories about his misfortune? for the first few stories i would prolly be sorry for him, but once the same story has been going around your circle of friends and more and more stories of misfortune has been heard, u must be thinking, apasal la mamat ni kisah hidup pathetic gle... It seem like he has been telling the stories to everyone to gain sympathies so that everyone would feel sorry for him and would lend him a helping hand. i'm not that cold hearted person that doesn't seem to care, but as i can remember vividly in one of ceramah agama on tv, the whole world doesnt need to know about bad things that happens in your life, because this will make us weak at handling it. furthermore, Allah swt is not cruel to fall a misfortune to his creation without any reason. Andddd Allah swt wouldn't help someone who wouldn't help himself. So, if there is a continues of misfortune fell upon you, would you blame the god???

"We only send the messengers to give Glad Tidings and to give warnings: But the unbelievers dispute with vain argument, in order therewith to weaken the truth, and they treat My Signs as a jest, as also the fact that they are warned!" 018.056

But then again I don’t remember you

-tidak bertajuk-

konpius benta.. approved friends i never requested..n all of them were in the same uni... ape2 jela ko fesbuk.. ske hati ko la...let the curiosity kill its own cat. not going to bother...

*-*-*

yeah i know life is complicated, is hard and yada yada yada...i never met someone who is never complain about their difficulties of life. Even Bill gates complains his software isnt so magical..cant we just accept the fact and live with it.. have you guys ever had a situation where you were so focusing on a particular thing and been putting so much effort to make it work, then all of sudden it failed. your heart crushed and will take forever to recover. dont you think its tiring. when you recovered and realized its actually a no big deal after all.. its not that u cant be sad and wallow. it is healthy to do that.scientifically proven. don't be shy to cry.just dont make it too long. you might have miss something. life is short. your lifetime might not last a day in resurrection.
a couple of days ago, as i was queuing at Subway counter , an mid-50 man was ordering his sandwiches. and all of sudden he went berserk just because the waiter misunderstood his salad dressing. why some people wants everyone to be afraid of them. i know its their choice as human. Dont you think its bring complication in life. it is no harm being nice.
Do whatever you want to do so long it doesnt hurt people whom you care and cares about you. and i'm doing exactly as it is. I know sometimes ppl asked me, didn't you feel anything? why are you seem so happy?takkan la tak penah sedih kot..i'm not a permanent resident of hospital in tanjung rambutan. duhh.. its just that i don't want to grow old becoming an old grumpy lady who is always get angry just about anything because she didnt get to do what she desired when she is still young..

skrg tgh fokus untuk jadi nenek yang happy dan ceria sentiasa!

heh!

“The risk of love is loss, and the price of loss is grief -
But the pain of grief
Is only a shadow
When compared with the pain
Of never risking love.”

“To confront a person with his own shadow is to show him his own light”

mr. nikotine dan ms. caffeine

'bang, bagi marlboro, soft pack satu'
'bang, cafe latte panas kurang manis satu'
sekali sedut,
otak yang serabut
yang kelam kabut
jadi nyaman
dunia kembali aman
berdua ketagih
'menagih'
so, toksah gaduh!

waking deep

if i'm leaving a dream, do wake me up
if i'm leaving a nightmare, do wake me up
because neither shows the truth
i want to be in the reality
thank you.

where to?

i came a cross a quote,

“The World is a Book, and Those Who Do Not Travel Read Only A Page”

I said it out loud to mom and gave me the annoyed look. hehehe..
she said, the world is only at your fingertip, u can always google...

nahh.. i'm greedy.. i like both..googling and traveling..

i get adrenaline rush when i think about traveling..
sometimes i need someone to gimme a smack to get me relax..

p/s: sometimes u gotta be cruel to be kind. after all, you are only supporting actor in everyone's play.

its the time for family

“So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.” xFenderx

Morrie Schwartz quote

HAPPY EID FITR

will be hiatus for a week.!! weeeeeee

positive wave

analogi manusia dgn gelombang. bermula dari satu titik dan merambat dari medium ke medium yg lain. Dalam masa yg sama terdapat gelombang gelombang lain yang terhasil. Ada ketika di dalam medium yang sama, pertembungan antara dua atau lebih gelombang berlaku. Inteferens ini mengahsil kan nod yang ada kalanya memusnah atau membina. Kemudian gelombang itu akan terus merambat dengan halaju atau amplitud yang berbeza dan mungkin seiringan dengan gelombang dimana berlakunya interferens itu. adakalanya gelombang melalui medium-medium yang berbeza, seperti gas dimana perambatan nya perlahan, cecair, perambatannya sederhana dan pepejal, perambatan secara maksimum.Dan akhirnya gelombang gelombang ini akan semakin berkurangan halaju, amplitud tapi ia tidak musnah. kerana teori albert einstein mengatakan tenaga tidak boleh dimusnahkan. ia cuma berubah dari satu tenaga ke tenaga yg berlainan. dan kadang kadang tenaga itu hanya dibazirkan untuk menentang geseran...

aku nak jadi gelombang yg merambat di medium pepejal dan hanya melakukan interferens membina dan mempunyai gelombang gelombang lain yang seiringan dan akhirnya berubah tenaga yang bermanfaat.

i'll live on.

conflicting a cornflakes

when i was a kid, i used to think conflicts is like cornflakes.
like for instance when i heard adults said' i'm having a conflicts with my partner'
i was innocently except she must be happy. eating cornflakes oso need to make a date..waa.. so happy ooo...
as i knew the meaning and faced with one, how i wish conflicts is like a cornflakes, crunchy, yummy and can be bake as kueh ray

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more than a week of hiatus.. not that i'm busy. its just that i'm enjoying much of the reality life compare to the virtual one.but i did some blog hopping here and there...how are things? hmm let me see.. work---> bad- good-hell-heaven ( yeah.. its so mood swing-like), life--> not bad, i just got a hand on good books to read. but i just thought that i want to trash that rental bookstore that i found in the earlier post.. it seems that most of the book there are almost 90% romance novel and half of it are judith mcnaught-kinda-type. blurghhhh...

and

i just learnt 1 lesson.

dont take what is not yours and treat people the way you want to be treated.if you take what is not yours, Allah swt will took away more from what you have.

the good: i should have stand by the money i owe her first thing after i got my pay check

the evil: u can always do it later, tomorrow even after 2-3 years. shes rich, she wont even remember u owe her money.

the good: no.no.. it is always in your belives not to take what it is not your. u already seen the consequences.

but i did return the money and yeah its true she forgot that i owed her money and no, i dont regret but was actually sooo grateful that i did because just after that moment, i receive a check more than twice the amount that i owed her..it came in by surprise..hell yeah ( supposedly heaven)...woohoo...

“When you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others.”

how i wish.. but nvm

u lose some, u win some. when u lose , u'll win something. when u win, u'll lose something. its only a matter of knowing it or not. if u still cant see it. be grateful of what u have is good enough because sometimes ignorance is not a bliss. its a nightmare.

silver lining

the feeling of abundance. when you want nothing more or nothing less. contented. that's the way to put it.you feel so grateful that you feel like sharing it with everyone. and its doesn't seem to finish and you still wanted to give more and more.
it will always be gratifying if most of the time i can have the ability and time to help. but as human, our love has a specific amount. therefore in need to be divided fairly according to the needs. or you yourself will be drain out.

“Happiness seems made to be shared.”

Fikirlah Sendiri

Jangan buat sesuka hati
nanti mati
buat ikut sesuka orang lain punya hati pun
jangan!
Nanti bila nak happy?
Jangan asyik menanti
sendiri nak happy
kerana selalu memaksa diri.
Kadang-kadang kena pentingkan diri sendiri
tapi jangan sampai hidung tinggi
biar ada sederhana diri
dan ada sabar di hati
tapi berbekalkan
kecekalan berani mati
Bila dah berjaya suatu hari nanti
bersyukurlah ke hadrat Ilahi.

~*~

“No one is free, even the birds are chained to the sky.”

two days ago, as i was walking back from the office, theres this couple of boys loitering at the Carrefour staircase wandering around doing nothing. As I pass by them, they asked me ' Kak ade singgit?' their skinny feature and the face like u haven't ate anything for a day made me took my purse out.. but sadly, i'm out of small change at that time. I said sorry to them and walk away with guilt.. mende2 camni mmg la aku cpt beno kesian..haih...naluri keibuan la konon2nye..hehhehhe.

yesterday, i saw the same kids again, with the previous guilt i had, i double the amount of money they asked.. xpe tu utk semlm x terbagi..

those kids reminds me of a relatives of mine who sort of the black sheep of the family. he ran out of his house couple of times mixing with the wrong group but not to severe like doing drugs or something. but for me it seems quite a serious matter. when asked about why he ran out of the house, he simply said 'Nak bebas'. i just when what the efff man..you are young and and yet to know the real world and you are demanding a freedom!! hah!. an ultimate freedom does not exist in the world young boy!

“While we are free to choose our actions, we are not free to choose the consequences of our actions.”

So, if you choose this kinda 'freedom' you say you want. for all you know you are choosing to prison yourself forever. but i dont think its totally his fault. There are reasons while children these days chose the 'freedom' = lack of attention and love from the parents. It is a common problem faced by many parents especially from the middle class where both parent are working et cetera2 while neglecting their childrens needs. you can never blame the parents totally because what they are doing now is for the best of their children. But sometimes things can go out of balance. Love and attention is replaced by materials. an easy solution w/o thinking the consequences. raising a children is like chewing on pebbles...i refuse to elaborate since i'm not in their shoes.

ok..i sound like a psychologist plak dah..lin said i read too much books..and no, i'm not an alpha female..hahaha

May day! May day!

its already May,how time flies. only during working life that i realized how precious time is..its all about time you know. ' if u cant get this done by today you are out', 'I want it done now'....tomorrow can't wait....bla bla bla... procrastinate is not and answer anymore.. the problem won't be solve by itself unless you face it.if you are not part of the solution you are part of the problem. but sometimes ppl are being neurotic u know. i admit being 1 sumtime. it is so confusing. it is so hard to pin point what is your responsibilities. sometimes you think it is yours, but other ppl had done it but when no ones doing it you are ought to blame.. life is difficult- one of the greatest truth on earth. accept it and you'll be ok... I'm going through life changes internally/spiritually and it is exciting yet exhausting.... its better doing it now rather than never at all.

to be or not to be is the question

i told my sister that what if someone told me that i'm a bitch?
and then she made this horrific face in disbelieved
' ko bitch??!! hahhahahah'
'tak langsung'
yeah. i thought so too.
or might be, I become one w/o realizing it?
but some ppl wouldn't mind being call a bitch
because bitch now is consider somewhat a term for women who had power and in control
theres even a book 'Why men marry Bitches'-sherry argov
I never read read that book though
nah.. i don't think this world need more bitches than its already have
but ppl said to be a good architect u need to be somewhat bitchy in order to stand up for yourself
hmmm....
i don't know..
whats your verdict?

masalahnya....

it was sincere
never doubt it.
it is normal to have conflicts,
disagreement,
jealousy,
some bitchiness,
but all of it
is neutralize under the name
of friendship.
but when you actually know,
learn,
feel,
experience,
the truth that it is no longer
what you think it is,
feeling frustrated,
a lil' depress.
but those feeling doesn't really matter
the problem arise is
how do you want to be sincere
again??

p/s: aku pun konfius sbnrnya...haih...

stop at red.

if only the red sign existed in our daily life routine.
not only on the road.
like for instance when we over do something too much.
the red light will appear ' alert mursyidah you are going overboard'!!
yeah.. so like everyone is living in wasatiah aka moderately.
yellow= prepare to end what your are doing
red= stop it!
green= now go.


I found something on the net about handling tough times.... mohon kebenaran ye En. Gabby, saya pinjam article anda!!

How to Stay Motivated During Tough Times

By Gabriel, Ehow expert Rivera, eHow Editor

Step1

Be more determined than ever because of your rejections. Your rejections will make your stronger, and this will give you every reason to work harder.

Step2

Read motivational quotes. By doing this, the inspirational quotes are embedded in your mind.

Step3

Watch an inspirational movie. This will inspire you to take matters into your own hands and do what you have to do.

Step4

Talk to other successful people. By hearing their experiences, you will be surprised to know that they went through the same experiences you are going through.

“Well, me don't swim too tough so me don't go in the water too deep.”~ Bob Marley