“No one is free, even the birds are chained to the sky.”

two days ago, as i was walking back from the office, theres this couple of boys loitering at the Carrefour staircase wandering around doing nothing. As I pass by them, they asked me ' Kak ade singgit?' their skinny feature and the face like u haven't ate anything for a day made me took my purse out.. but sadly, i'm out of small change at that time. I said sorry to them and walk away with guilt.. mende2 camni mmg la aku cpt beno kesian..haih...naluri keibuan la konon2nye..hehhehhe.

yesterday, i saw the same kids again, with the previous guilt i had, i double the amount of money they asked.. xpe tu utk semlm x terbagi..

those kids reminds me of a relatives of mine who sort of the black sheep of the family. he ran out of his house couple of times mixing with the wrong group but not to severe like doing drugs or something. but for me it seems quite a serious matter. when asked about why he ran out of the house, he simply said 'Nak bebas'. i just when what the efff man..you are young and and yet to know the real world and you are demanding a freedom!! hah!. an ultimate freedom does not exist in the world young boy!

“While we are free to choose our actions, we are not free to choose the consequences of our actions.”

So, if you choose this kinda 'freedom' you say you want. for all you know you are choosing to prison yourself forever. but i dont think its totally his fault. There are reasons while children these days chose the 'freedom' = lack of attention and love from the parents. It is a common problem faced by many parents especially from the middle class where both parent are working et cetera2 while neglecting their childrens needs. you can never blame the parents totally because what they are doing now is for the best of their children. But sometimes things can go out of balance. Love and attention is replaced by materials. an easy solution w/o thinking the consequences. raising a children is like chewing on pebbles...i refuse to elaborate since i'm not in their shoes.

ok..i sound like a psychologist plak dah..lin said i read too much books..and no, i'm not an alpha female..hahaha

who are you again???

never thought it would happen
the moment where the history came flashing back
'what a small world'- while rolling the eyes
my 'small' little world doesn't includes you anyway
but it did
my ego has diminish everything
and now
you are just an acquaintance i met in life.
so long sucker!
hah!

Twice it is

Do you know mothers day are celebrated on a different day in some countries?i celebrated mom's mother's day twice this year. the UK's mother's day is on 22nd of March and Malaysia is on the 10th of May. So, my sis and i gave her a gift on both dates, since we were at the particular place on that particular date. how lucky she was..

road-road

1. when planning, dont just suddenly tell it out loud about it to everyone, some ppl will startled and thinks it is a silly idea. unless most of your frens are the spontaneous type...but to tell u the truth is most people are less likely to be like that. propose your trip to some1 close and ask for their honest opinion.

2. Please, pretty please, if you are the one who suggested the trip, be in charge of everything, don't ask someone to plan it for you, if you did, the chances that the plan will work is 10%. be enthusiast about the trip.

3. the date of trip planned is propotional to the budget that will be spend for the trip. so, if you plan a small trip that is low budget the trip should be done within 2 weeks of time. whereas if its a trip to another country, within the region=3 month ok, like to europe or further up = 6 month.

4. you don't 1 to be overspend on a trip. so, get as much information as possible about the place. to save money on travel like air tickets, accommodation, do aware of the cheap tix offer by budget airline, fairly cheap hotels etc..for all you know if you can get a free place to stay, you'll be saving half of the travel expenses.. too go way cheaper and during good weather, choose dates between the low season and peak season.

5. if you are going to a place with different culture and believes, and with both your male and female friends, do consider their needs. if you do, they will be confident in joining your organized trip.e.g. for muslims traveling to europe or india, convinced them that it is easy to pray and the toilets there are clean. women does consider those stuff during traveling.

p/s: bak kate take bane, go travel, open up your eyes to new things! be inspired!

i'm out of word to describe things lately. picture does say a thousand words.tough times.

May day! May day!

its already May,how time flies. only during working life that i realized how precious time is..its all about time you know. ' if u cant get this done by today you are out', 'I want it done now'....tomorrow can't wait....bla bla bla... procrastinate is not and answer anymore.. the problem won't be solve by itself unless you face it.if you are not part of the solution you are part of the problem. but sometimes ppl are being neurotic u know. i admit being 1 sumtime. it is so confusing. it is so hard to pin point what is your responsibilities. sometimes you think it is yours, but other ppl had done it but when no ones doing it you are ought to blame.. life is difficult- one of the greatest truth on earth. accept it and you'll be ok... I'm going through life changes internally/spiritually and it is exciting yet exhausting.... its better doing it now rather than never at all.